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Never forget…

If you watch Game of Thrones, you’ll know who Tyrion Lannister is.  He says something in the first season that I just love and it has stuck with me since I read the book and watched the TV show.  He says “Never forget what you are.  The rest of the world will not.  Wear it like armor and it can never be used to hurt you.”

The entire scene between Tyrion and Jon Snow was amazing to me because there were two outcasts, sitting together.

The “meat” of the scene is here:

Tyrion: Let me give you some advice bastard. Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.
Jon: What the hell do you know about being a bastard?
Tyrion: All dwarfs are bastards in their father’s eyes.

I just love that.  ”Wear it like armor.”

What do you wear like armor?


Here are a few things I will never forget:

  • I am a compulsive gambler.  I cannot gamble normally.  I cannot try to win things on the radio, I cannot enter raffles or play the lottery.
  • I used to do dishonest and not so nice things to ensure I could keep gambling.
  • I was not a very moral person.
  • I am in recovery.  I am a better person today than I was 14 years ago when I was gambling.
  • I am courageous and brave.
  • I am a woman of integrity.
  • I am honest and forthcoming.
  • I have a great sense of humor.
  • I’m a hard worker and am very conscientious in my work.
  • I am growing and go through an evolution pretty often.
  • I like change.  It keeps me on my toes and keeps me active and aware of what’s going on around me.
  • I am a college student with hopes and dreams of my future.

I’ve had my past thrown in my face and used against me in order to hurt me.  And it worked.  Until I didn’t let it, until I started wearing it like armor.  No one can hurt me with that information unless I let them.  I refuse to let them anymore.  My past is exactly that, my past and I don’t live there anymore.  It helped mold and develop who I am today.  I’m grateful for my past, as it shows me where I don’t want to return or don’t want to repeat.

Until next time….

New Year – new me?

There have been so very many changes in my life since September of 2014.

In my December update, I mentioned a few of them. I’ve added another to the list during this first week of 2015. I’m in the hiring process of becoming a part time contractor for a transcription company that does mostly law enforcement transcriptions. This part time job could theoretically bring in more money for me than my full time job in about six months to a year.

I’m looking forward to getting started with the company. I’ve done a fingerprint card, they ran a background check on me (I’m not a criminal – thank goodness!) and they’ve sent me a sample transcription that I need to do this weekend and get it back to them.

They will evaluate and then either send me a 2nd sample or tell me no thanks. I figure my background in law enforcement AND transcribing officer’s and arrest reports back in the day will help me pass their screening process. However, in case I’m wrong, could you throw up a little prayer or positive thought my way? I’d appreciate it!

Here’s a run down of what I’ve done since September 2014:

  • Moved into a 2 bedroom house (with a garage!!)
  • Got a beautiful new companion of a dog.
  • Started school for my B.S.
  • Ended a toxic relationship
  • Bought a new car
  • Started the hiring process for this 2nd job.

I don’t know, I think it’s a lot going on and a lot of changes I’m getting used to.  Even positive change can be stressful so I’m trying to manage my stress the best I can until I can add “went back to the Crossfit gym” to this list.

Happy New Year!

Renewed!

I couldn’t decide what to do with this space, so I let GoDaddy auto renew my domain and so I’m here for at least another 3 years!

I’ve had a lot of exciting and crazy things happening in my life the last year or so. I’ve gone back to school (again) to get a degree in Management Information Systems. It’s under the Business Administration umbrella, so it’ll open up quite a few doors. I’ve been taking on more responsibility at work, I’ve moved into a 2 bedroom house instead of that tiny one bedroom apartment. I got a dog, her name is Zeevah (kudos to those who get the reference) and she is a German Shepherd/Black Lab mix. I love her so very much! I’ve ended a toxic “friendship” that was very bad for me, but it sure was exciting and fun while I was in it! I’ve realized my worth, I’ve learned how to respect me so that others will have no other choice but to respect me.

And last night, I bought a new car. This was not something that was in my short term goals, however, the Jetta left me no choice. I’ve put so much money into that thing to keep it running and it now needed a new transmission. So I did a pros and cons list and made my decision. I got a 2015 Mitsubishi Outlander Sport. It’s a small SUV and it’s beyond cute! My number one thing I love about it? It’s reliable and I’m not afraid of it breaking down in the middle of the bridge on a snowy, cold day in January.

I went to a chiropractor for my back and hip issues, which ended up fixing my issue with the neuroma on my foot. However, it then helped me develop plantar fasciitis(sp) that is horrifically painful. I’m trying to get back to the gym, even if I just use the row machines and not do much lifting, I need to do something.

I hope you’re all doing well (if anyone still reads this thing)

Until next time…

Hello there!

I’ve been meaning to post everyday and keep a “journal” of my workouts, but I keep forgetting. When I do remember, it’s days later and I have like 3 or 4 workouts that I don’t want to post all at once.

So I’ll just that I’ve been doing A LOT of rowing on the row machine. I love that thing. I’m working my way up to 5k meters. Once I hit that, I’ll work my way up 1k each week or two.

My feet still hurt almost every day. Some days are better than others. I have a certain level of stress that is only relieved when I work out, so I’m pushing myself and resting my feet when I need it. I can tell when I’ve over done it and then I take two days off from any exercise activity. It’s really quite irritating to not be able to do what I used to do in these workouts, but everyone has to re-start somewhere, right?

Hope everyone had a great weekend.

Until next time…

Working my way up…

When I started going back to the gym 2 weeks ago, I made a decision to NOT throw myself into Crossfit the way I did before. I decided I would not workout 5 days a week and as hard as I could. I decided to workout when I felt like it – but I had to go at least 3 times a week. I’ve stuck to this schedule pretty well and with the start of the 3rd week, I decided to throw in something I haven’t done in over a year. The dreaded AMRAP workout. As many rounds as possible in a certain amount of time.

This is what I did today:
350m row to warm up
10 shoulder press #45 (my upper body strength completely disappeared so I’ll be working on that a lot)

15 minute AMRAP of

5 push ups (modified on knees)
10 sit ups
10 kettlebell swings (25#)

I did 7 rounds of this and feel pretty good about that, considering I had to go a little slower because of my foot not being in a good mood today. It averages to just a little over 2 minutes per round. Pretty solid work for my AMRAP.

Until next time…

Doing what the big kids do

So I challenged myself today to do one workout that was on the main Crossfit website (crossfit.com). I went through the website and I settled on the WOD from yesterday, Thursday the 17th.

10 rounds of:
1 minute of rowing
rest 15 seconds
30 seconds of shoulder press
rest 15 seconds
total meters and total reps of the presses is your score.

I got to the Ville at around 2:20 after taking some vacation time at work. I changed into my workout clothes, did some stretching, set up my little piece of paper to write down my meters and reps and then set the stop watch on my iPhone. After setting my bar (45#) on the rack so I could easily shoulder press it, I hit start on the stop watch and off I went.

Round 1 – 200/14
Round 2 – 195/12
Round 3 – 190/9
Round 4 – 203/10
Round 5 – 199/7
Round 6 – 194/7
Round 7 – 190/7
Round 8 – 193/8
Round 9 – 196/7
Round 10- 188/7

total meters rowed – 1948
total shoulder press – 88
Time to complete – 24:22

My shoulders already hurt and my legs feel like jelly. There is one good thing about the rowing machine, it makes my foot feel fantastic. I’m wondering if my foot responds so well to that because it’s working out the scar tissue at the incision point. I don’t know.

I struggled with the shoulder presses, as you can see from my numbers. I think I also rested more than 15 seconds between eat exercise station. I’m okay with that. I completed a big kid workout!!! YAY me!!

Time for two days of rest, since it’s the weekend and the gym is not open during times that work for me.

Until next time…

Getting back to a routine

For the last year, I’ve used my foot surgery and a few other things going on in my life as excuses to stay away from the gym (in the firehouse or the Crossfit box I belong to) and I’m done with that.

Today, I used the gym in the firehouse so I’d have a little motivation from people I know.

One of the Captains was doing:

5 rounds of:
250m row
20 double under (jump ropes)
20 kettlebell swings (75#)
How long it took him to do one round – he would rest that same amount of time. This means, if it took him 3 minutes to do the first round, then he rested 3 minutes before starting the 2nd, etc.

So I decided to do something similar and this is what I did:
3 rounds of:
250m row
20 box step ups
20 db swings (25#)
It took me a total of 16:36 to complete, including the resting times. It kicked my ass pretty well.

I’m on a new maintenance medication for the asthma and today was my first dosage of that. I have to say, my lungs have not felt this clear in a very long time, even when I was a nonsmoker for about 5 weeks! I’m still going to try the quitting smoking thing. While I realized I don’t really want to quit smoking, I do know that I will be better off as a nonsmoker, health wise.

I’m glad to be getting back into a routine of sorts with my workouts and I am beginning to enjoy the feeling of the workouts again.

Until next time…

April 15 – well that didn’t take long!

When I worked out regularly over a year ago, extremely cardio heavy workouts would make me feel pukey. And sometimes, I’d give in to that feeling, let myself vomit, (after running to the restroom of course – puking on a gym floor is unacceptable LOL) and then go back to finishing the workout.

After work, I made my way to the gym and looked to see what the WOD was for today. Here is what was on the board:

500m row
15 deadlifts (185/125)
25 ring dips
35 air squats
3 rounds

Needless to say, I can’t do 125# deadlift, so I adjusted the weight on that to 65#. Then, I realized I can’t do ring dips. One of the coaches helped me with a band on the rings and I couldn’t stabilize myself, so she moved me over to the bar they use for that stuff.

She also told me to lower the amount per round, as it’s a very cardio intensive workout. And this is what I ended up doing:

500m row
15 deadlift (65#)
15 bar dips
25 squats
2.5 rounds

I say 2.5 rounds because during the rowing of the 3rd round, I felt pukey but pushed through to the bar dips. During the bar dips, I almost lost it so we know what happened after that! When I came back out to finish the workout, my right foot cramped up to the point I could hardly move it for a few minutes. I knew then that I was done for the day.

I love being back in the gym. Even though I’m not going every single day like I was, it feels good to be going every other day or so. Wednesday is a rest day for me and I’ll be back in the gym on Thursday.

Until next time…

The basic elements

There are several lifts that we use in Crossfit. There are the basics like front squat, back squat, overhead squat, shoulder press (shoulder to overhead), push press, etc. and then there are the more complicated cleans, power cleans, clean and jerks, deadlifts, sumo deadlift high pull (my personal fave.)

It’s been about a year since I’ve done a workout inside a Crossfit box. It’s been a year since my foot allowed me to wear tennis shoes for more than a minute before pinching the nerves and setting my foot on fire. Yes, I wear wide width shoes. Yes, I’ve been fitted for workout shoes. My foot has been a problem for a long time.

After my surgery in June of 2013, I went on workout hiatus. It resulted in me gaining back most, if not all, of the weight I had lost. I didn’t want to find that weight again.

Yesterday after work, I went to the Crossfit gym and a friend from work walked me through the “elements” of Crossfit and the basic lifts, along with deadlifts. I felt a little sore, my foot behaved for the most part for about an hour. By the time I got home, my foot was on fire, so I took the shoe off and I had immediate relief.

I decided I would keep going to the gym, several times a week.

Today, I went to do a regular workout (WOD) and decided to do what they had written on the board, which is basically what everyone taking a Crossfit class would do.

This is what was on the board:
4 rounds of
15 shoulder to overhead (135/95)
15 K2E (knees to elbows)
400m run

This is what I actually did:
4 rounds of
15 shoulder to overhead (45#)
15 v ups
400m row

My goal was to do it in less than 20 minutes. I barely made that mark, but I did it. Immediately after the workout, after catching my breath, I got my gym bag and changed my shoes to flip flops. It helped my foot quite a bit on the ride home.

I then got in my car to come home and got stuck in the worst traffic ever and it took me an hour! However, even the horrific traffic could not ruin the mood I was in after finishing that workout.

Until next time…

My week in a nutshell…

I posted something and then I deleted it.

My week has been exhausting and revealing. I get fatigued extremely fast. I worked part of Thursday (my first day back to work) and then all day Friday. I felt like I had worked 7 days straight. I’m approaching the one week point of being on these medicines and I know that it takes 2-3 weeks for these things to kick in and do their “job.” I’m trying to be patient with myself and just take it easy and not over do it. Easier said than done for me. I’ve been doing a lot of old school writing in my journal and I’ve been listening to Spotify on my phone. A lot. It helps.

The good news is, my foot has not really hurt all that much for the last week. I don’t know why that is. Maybe because I was in the hospital Sunday night and most of Monday and then didn’t do anything Tuesday and Wednesday except visit the doctor. Whatever reason, I enjoy walking without pain.

I woke up this morning to the news that a friend of a friend committed suicide last night back home in Vegas. Such a tragic loss for his family and friends. It brought back some memories of when a friend I worked with, committed suicide back in 1997. It was a horrible time for his loved ones and friends. I’m counting my blessings tonight.

Until next time…