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OK, I stole this idea from Mr. Fabulous. If you’ve never read his blog, go click on it. He’s funny, witty and very entertaining! One of my favorite reads.

This is what ya do, you pick ONE musical artist/group. From those songs from that ONE group, you answer these questions. I’ve chosen Rob Thomas and Matchbox 20. And believe me, it’s not as easy as it sounds/looks!

Are you male or female? Girl Like That

Describe yourself: Unwell

How do some people feel about you: You’re So Real

How do you feel about yourself: Back 2 Good

Describe current relationship with boyfriend/girlfriend: Bent

Describe where you want to be: Real World

Describe how you live: Mad Season

Describe how you love: All I Need

What would you ask for if you had just one wish: Bright Lights

Share a few words of Wisdom: If You’re Gone

Now say goodbye: Last Beautiful Girl

Until next time…

Every now and then, I realize that I’ve been “stalking” some blogs. Reading them daily or weekly and not commenting. So I have spent the majority of my morning (I’ve been up since 7am), reading blogs and leaving comments on some of them. There are a few of the “blogger” ones that I can’t comment on cause they do not take “anonymous” comments and since I don’t have a blogger account here with the Soda Stand, I can’t comment.

That’s OK though, I’ll just keep “stalking” em. There are a few I just get a kick out of reading. I get a good laugh or a good insight into something every time I read them. I’ve enjoyed this morning of reading and commenting.

I also bought and downloading the new Blue October album to my handy dandy iPod. I bought a iTrip yesterday while out and about with my friend RC. I put it on this little thingamajig and then turn my radio in my car to a certain frequency and it plays my iPod songs. woohoo! how cool is that? Unfortunately, it’s not very clear and I don’t like it much so I’m going to have to consider investing in an actual thing where it plugs into my lighter thing (actually it’s my cell phone charger thing cause I don’t have an ashtray in my car).

Here I sit with one of my simple pleasures. My coffee, Sportscenter, laptop and my Josie. OK, so that’s several of my simple pleasures hahaha

I read and saw on the news that a 5 foot 1 inch sexual offender was given 10 years probation over jail time. Why? Cause the judge felt he was “too short” to go to prison. WTF?!?!?!?!?!?! What kind of message is that sending to these fucking freaks out there? *sigh* Sometimes I question our justice system. Only sometimes.

I’m going to be spending part of today surfing the ‘net to find a tattoo design that I like. Wish me luck on that! hahaha I know where I want it and I know (generally) what I want. I just have to find the exact thing I want and then I’ll be able to start tattoo artist shopping. There’s this one tattoo place I’d LOVE LOVE LOVE to go, but for work reasons I CAN’T. UGH! So, I’ve got to shop around and find someone else suitable enough to do the art work.

Today I’m also going to spend watching sports. The Yankees game comes on at 10am and then the Coca Cola 600 is on at 2pm. That will give me my baseball AND NASCAR one after the other.

Until next time….

I’ve been searching the internet for tattoo ideas for my next tat. I want it on my belly a little on my left side. I want some kind of Asian inspired art. I’m thinking some Cherry Blossom petals and maybe a fan of some kind…kind of like this picture I snagged off Miami Ink’s website from TLC.

Tattoo by Chris Garver of Miami Ink.

I don’t know if that’s Chinese or Japanese Kanji next to it, but I’d want that in there too. I’d want it to say Serenity Courage and Wisdom. That’s up for debate cause I have no idea what I would really want when it came down to getting the damn thing. I don’t know that I’d want it that big so I’d have to make some serious adjustments to it. Seriously, if I could afford to go all the way to South Beach? Garver would be doing the tat and I’d be in tattoo heaven really.

Do you have any ideas?

Until next time….

Yeah, so I’m awake at 7am on a Saturday. Yeah, so I’m really tired and still feeling crappy. But realistically, I’m sitting here drinking my Don Francisco Vanilla Nut coffee and watching ESPN Sportscenter. It can’t get any better than this, can it? I love watching Sportscenter when I first get up and am drinking my coffee. It’s a good way for me to start my day!

Today’s plans include getting my hair done and then going to lunch and a movie with my friend RC. RC and I have not been able to hang out lately cause of work commitments and other issues in our lives. I’m really looking forward to this time with her.

On a few other blogs, I’ve seen a “meme” that asks you to list the top 10 of life’s simple pleasures. And since I really have nothing else to say right now, I’m going to do this thing. These are not in any kind of order, as I think of something I’m writing it.

1. Hugging and kissing on my Josie. She’s just adorable! I love the fact that 9 outta 10 times when I’m sitting here on the couch she’s above/behind my head laying down watching me.

2. Watching Sportscenter on Saturday and Sunday mornings. I don’t know what it is but I just find a lot of pleasure in that.

3. Hugging my mom. A lot of people don’t have their moms to hug and I think those of us who do, sometimes take advantage of that.

4. Laughter. I find a lot of pleasure when someone or something makes me laugh from deep within.

5. Thunderstorms and rain. I love those two things. It doesn’t happen often enough here in the Las Vegas Valley, so when it does, I’m loving it.

6. Hot dogs, beer and peanuts at a major league baseball game

7. This laptop of mine and anytime I figure out stuff on my blog without having to bother my brother or anyone else to help me do something.

8. Walking through my work building around shift change. The smell of their cologne is very pleasing (30+ guys wearing different colognes all mixed together)

9. Getting to work at 630 am and having a group of guys and our cleaning lady waiting for me so we can have coffee together. that’s awesome! Makes me look forward to going to work everyday.

10. The view from my backyard of the Sheep Mountain Range. We are very close to the mountains here in the northwest end of the valley. It’s an awesome view.

OK…there you have it!

Until next time….

This is a definite post of bitching and moaning. I need some cheese to go with this whine cause I’m miserable. Physically. Emotionally I feel a lot better than I have in weeks. Amazing what happens when you start letting go of resentments and anger hahaha The only person this resentment is hurting is me. I’m the one suffering for it. The other person has no fucking idea and doesn’t care.

I have been trying my best to not start my sentences with “so” or “anyway.” I know that I do that a lot. I’m well aware of it and am trying to change it. Occassionally I will probably slip up and start the sentence with one of those annoying words. I’ll get there though!

OK, I’ve been trying to get myself into a better mood since I feel so crappy and this kind of helps, don’t ya think?

OK guys, you may want to stop reading cause I’m about to give a little TMI. I have spent all day on this couch. Once I got home from my meeting, I slept for an hour or so and then just sat here. I’m trying to remain paitent and not panic. I’m trying to remember everything the Doctor told me would happen after surgery. I remember him telling me that the first four months after surgery, I would still have my monthly visitor. After said 3 or 4 months, we would see how the surgery took hold and see what kind of cycle my body takes me into.

OK hello….I had the fucking surgery so I wouldn’t have to go through what I’m going through right now. I had the surgery so I wouldn’t have to feel like shit, I wouldn’t have to cramp up and feel like someone has my insides in a fucking vice grip. I also had this surgery so I would not be afraid of “accidents” as I’m walking around and doing stuff. Now here I sit wondering if the surgery worked. Why am I wondering this so quickly? It’s only been a month and a half since the surgery and the doctor told me I’d have some periods. He said my body would need to clean itself out and I’m freaking out. I’m freaking out cause I feel crappy and I’m in pain. I do have to say though (and I always try to find the positive in things) that these pains (yeah, OK cramps) are not half as bad as before I had the surgery. I’m trying to focus on that instead of how much pain I’m in. It’s not working real well, but I’m trying.

Until next time…

I’m at a lost of what to post about today. I could go into detail about what I’m going through physically or emotionally. But realistically speaking, would that really help me? Emotionally? Yes. Physically? probably not. After I had my surgery in April, the doctor told me that my body would be “flushing” itself out the first few months of “cycles”….so last month I had a slight “flushing” during my cycle. This month? I’m bleeding a lot heavier than last month. I do have to say the pain is still not all that bad. I can think straight and I can walk, so that’s a marked improvement. I’m trying really hard not to freak out cause the doctor told me this might happen. Now that it is, I hate it and I want it to go away. Now.

Emotionally, I’m feeling a lot better than I have in the last two weeks. Wonder why that is? Well it’s cause I went to a GA meeting this morning and vented about everything that has happened in the last two weeks with the Marine. I mentioned in that meeting that I realized when I said to someone “we all have baggage, he just doesn’t know how to pack his very well,” I don’t know how to pack my baggage sometimes either. And that’s OK today. Today, I have found healthy, organized and helpful ways of dealing with what I feel and dealing with what I think. I’ve let about 60% of the resentment I was feeling towards him go. I’m working on the other 40% and the more meetings I go too and the more I talk about it there, the faster it will happen.

I’m not normally one to hold onto a grudge or a resentment so I’ve been a little confused (until today) on why I was hanging onto this. I was thriving under that resentment. I was loving the warmth it was providing me. Today, I realized that if I held onto that resentment, I wouldn’t have to let him go yet. Yeah well that shit ain’t gonna fly with me, so I’m letting it go. I’m letting the resentment go, therefore, I’m letting him go. I’m done.

I filled out the bills today and that was exhausting. Shit, everything is exhausting to me today hahaha Could be cause I’ve gotta keep my feet up and not move much (if I don’t move, maybe it’ll go away? haha)
Thanks for letting me vent

Until next time….

This is a bit long, so bare with me. It also may jump around a bit cause…welllllll I’m just confused! Thanks

I am so confused by the season finale of Lost, it’s not even funny. I sat there for a few minutes after it ended last night, just staring at the TV. Did I miss something? Damn, I think I missed a lot of shit. Or was it just the writers’ way of fucking with my mind? As usual with this show! I won’t even be touching on the Locke and Eko thing…cause well I just have no idea what the fuck happened there. All I know about that little situation is that Eko and John are most likely dead cause Desmond turned that key thing and blew that shit up. BLEW. IT. UP. Or at least that’s what they led us to believe. Guess we’ll find out in the fall.

This episode was a Desmond-esque episode. It focused on filling us in on how Desmond made it to the island and what happened to him before he got there. It gave us some back story to him and his girlfriend and her father. Her father (or whoever that old fart was in the limo) had a folder with the Dharma Initiative symbol on it. What for? Why? What does he have to do with the DI? We never got that answer.

At the beginning of the episode, the stranded find a boat floating up into the little area where they live on the beach. So Jack, Sawyer and Sayid swim out to the boat to see what’s up with that. As a side note? Sawyer and Sayid need to take their shirts off more often. Holy shit!

Once there, they find an inebriated Desmond. What’s he doing? Getting stinking drunk in the hull of his little yacht there. Which, later in the episode, we learn was given to him by …ummm Libby? WTF?! The way they connect these characters is a little insane to me, but hey I love the show, so I keep watching. Blind faith, my friends. That’s what it is. At this point of the show, I have faith they are going to explain some of this shit to me…ya know?

Previously, Sayid went to Jack and voiced his concerns about Michael. At first, Jack tried to poo-poo away Sayid’s concerns. But as it got closer to the time they were leaving, Jack noticed Michael’s weird behavior and started to believe Sayid. Sayid had tried to get Michael to allow him to go with them…he’s an Iraqi soldier, after all. He could kick some ass. I think if I were walking into something like that, I’d want a real bonafide trained soldier (aka killer) with me. I dunno, could just be me. Just sayin’. So Michael goes apeshit on Sayid for saying he wants to go….Sayid backs down and says OK I won’t go. Hence, the convo with Jack about Michael being compromised.

Sayid comes up with the plan to go around the other side of the island in Desmond’s boat so they can attack the “others” from both sides. Woohoo! love that plan Sayid! Imagine our surprise (and Sayid’s) that the camp is now empty and there are no “others” there. WTF?! Where is Michael taking them? By now, I’m hating this Michael guy more and more. Hated him since his back story in the first season (not wanting to take Walt after his mother died, etc etc) then he came around and I started liking him a bit more again. He was redeeming himself in my eyes.

While they were traveling to where the “others” were with Michael in the lead, Kate noticed some people following them, so she and Sawyer got down to business and started shooting. Love that chick. Not afraid to get in the mix of stuff, ya know? Anyway, they kill one and the other gets away.

Right after that, Jack screams at Michael to tell them what he’s done. He tries to pretend he doesn’t know what Jack is talking about, but Jack attacks him and pins him against a tree.

At this same time (or round abouts), Sayid, Jin and Sun are getting onto Desmond’s boat to go around the island and find nothing. They found a huge sculpture of a foot with only four toes. Hmmm things keep getting stranger and stranger.

Jack and Company discover all those tube things that Locke and Eko found in the other hatch. They start going through them and then hear something. They freak out (as well they should) and start running. They each get shot with a taser like prong thingy that makes them convulse for a few minutes. The “others” take Jack and Company tied up and a sack over their head to a “dock” type of thing. That nasty ass boat we last saw in season 1 when they stole Walt came up and guess who got off the boat? None other than Henry Gale…OK, fake Henry, but Henry because I don’t know his name! Turns out he’s the leader of the “others” WTF?!

We also saw Tom’s face. He’s the one with the fake beard and mustache. Then they let Michael get on the boat with Walt and they take off. The others then told Hurley he could go. His job was to go back to his camp and tell the rest to never come “here.” So Hugo starts walking off the dock. He asks what’s going to happen to his friends and they tell him that they are “coming home with us.” How creepy is that? Hurley asks who they are and Henry says “We’re the good guys” Oh wait, did Michael ask that question? I can’t remember.

With the hatch door flying onto the beach, almost hitting Clare and the older dude, and then the others taking Kate, Jack and Sawyer away. I have no predictions for the next season. My best friend and I talked today and we are going to watch the first two or three episodes of the next season and then make our decisions on whether to continue watching the show. That’s how much it pissed us off. I think out of the whole two seasons I’ve watched this show, this is the first one that truly, thoroughly pissed me off.

I most likely left a lot out of this post, but I’m tired now. Thinking about that show last night has exhausted me!

Until next time….

Well, here we are again on our Fuck Off and Die Thursday. I’ve been thinking about this all day and at the beginning of the day, I had no one to tell to fuck off and die….For whatever reason (one I am not going to question or delve too deeply into) I woke up in a very good mood.

As the day has progressed, I now have someone to say that too, however, I can’t really talk about it cause it’s work related. And in order for me talk about it, I’d have to get into specifics so that ya’ll would know what the hell I was talking about.

So I sat at my desk all afternoon, trying to figure out a way to say it and be vague about it. Here is my attempt at being vague:

To those who come up with half cocked ideas. Please fuck off and die. To those who make a plan without getting the input of the people who will actually be DOING the idea you come up with, fuck off and die. To those of you who flat out refuse to listen to anyone else’s ideas about something, fuck off and die. To those who scream at me for disagreeing with you and/or your “team,” fuck off and die.

I get tired of having to be the “bad” messenger, ya know? I get direction from above my boss’s head and I’m expected to “sell” the idea in a way that makes it sound like I agree or support this idea. Sometimes, like today, I do not agree with it. At all. I’m 100% against it and so now I get to find a way to “buy into” this idea myself before selling it to the people who work under me. It sucks, I know. I’ll do it and I’ll get to that point, but until I do get to that point those people can fuck off and die.

Thanks for letting me rant while being vague! hahaha

Until next time….

Don’t you just love Wednesday? I don’t know what it is about this “hump” day that I like so much. Maybe cause it’s one day closer to Friday? Cause it signifies the middle of the week? Who knows, but I sure do enjoy Wednesdays.

We had a New Year’s Eve planning meeting today. Ugh. It’s that time of the year. We now have one to two meetings per weekmonth, if not more, until New Year’s Eve. Oy! Not something I’m looking forward too, but I sure am looking forward to the 12 hours of overtime I get that night. hahaha Money talks baby!

I was going to do a count down of sorts until my cruise. And then I realized that it’s so far away, I’d probably lose some of my regular readers if I kept posting how many days are left, each and every day. I’ll probably mention it in passing once a week or every other week. Unless something happens, like I get the cruise paperwork. Or we completely pay it off (we have until June 23rd to do that).

I’ve decided that as soon as I get my insurance card in (remember I had lost it? yeah, it takes them 2 weeks to get a new one out to me), I am going to call the doctor and make an appointment. I’ve been getting a lot of headaches, sinus infections and generally I’m feeling very tired all the time. It doesn’t matter how much sleep or how little sleep I get, I’m exhausted. All the time. I’m also going to look at improving my diet and exercise levels. I have a membership to 24 hour Fitness and I haven’t used it in like 9 months. WTF? I pay a lot of fricking money for that shit. I’ve decided I need to start using it again. Since I have zero amounts of energy right now, I’m going to wait until I go to the doctor and we figure what the heck is up with me. Once we figure that out and get it taken care of, I’m going to make a schedule for my work outs and start going every other day, if not every day.

Normally when I make a commitment to myself about shit like that, I stick to it. Cross your fingers for me! I’m hoping I’m not getting lazy or apathetic about this shit.

OK, I’m watching the Yankees game (muted while listening to iTunes – Hoobastank of course) and Randy Johnson is just fucking falling apart. What the hell?

Until next time….

I have to say that I have 123 days left until my Mexican Riviera crusie! woohoo!!!!

I’m watching the Yankees game right now. That shouldn’t surprise you. It’s 3 to 0 right now, Yankees lead top of the 5th.

I came home early from work today. I feel like I’m getting a cold. When I got home, I sat on the couch and turned on the TV. I found that Batman Begins was on HBO and so I started watching that. I only missed the first 2 minutes or so. I actually enjoyed the crap outta that movie. Christian Bale has been one of my favorite hotties for a long long time and WOW!

There is this song, called Don’t Tell Me on the new Hoobastank album, Every Man For Himself. I listen to these lyrics and amazing how I just relate this shit to my life. I’ve always been able to take a song and rap it into my little world. I can relate. It matches or runs parallel to something going on in my life. This song’s lyrics make me think of someone I was recently involved with. Even though I wish the person no harm, I hope he finds the happiness he seeks in his life, I still have to call bullshit on him for a few things (which I’ve actually already done in person).

Here are some of the lyrics (don’t worry, I didn’t block quote the whole song….I almost did tho! hahaha)

Don’t tell me that you are ready to change.
Don’t tell me that from now it won’t be the same.
It doesn’t matter, ’cause at the end of the day,
It isn’t what you say, it’s what you do!

I’ve told this guy that actions have always spoken louder than words. For whatever reason, he disagreed with me at the time I said it. I’ve realized in the last week that everyone has baggage. We all carry around a little piece of our last relationship. We all have baggage. This guy just doesn’t/didn’t know how to pack his very well.

What you say will be forgotten someday.
What you do will be remembered.
Empty promises all fade away.
What you keep will last forever.

Don’t tell me you’ll make things better for us.

Don’t tell me that you’re some one I can trust.
It doesn’t mean a thing to me because,
It isn’t what you say, it’s what you do!

One thing I do have to say is that he rarely made me promises. For that, I’m very grateful. He led me on quite a bit and left me hanging for a few weeks without knowing what was going on. I believe that I can lie by omission. I can not tell the truth by just keeping my mouth shut and not saying anything. It’s sometimes a choice I make to keep the peace or to try not to piss someone off.

Your actions will speak louder than you!

’cause I don’t care what you say or what you do,
You can’t take back what you’ve put me through.
Your actions will speak louder than you!.

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So obviously, this song makes me think of him. Here’s why I’m a little irritated. Since that day last week when we spoke about what was going on and he let me know what his decision was, I’ve tried very hard to remain professional at work and even on a friendly level. I’m not the type of person to become totally vindictive and hateful. I’m also not the type to hold a grudge or resentment for very long. I’m thinking I’ve been holding onto this anger and resentment for entirely too long. However, I know it’s because I was extremely disappointed. He ended up not being the person he presented himself to be, or in all fairness, maybe the person I pretended he was.

I won’t embarrass him if I can help it and I won’t go off on him in front of others or at work. I’m still angry and this is why….Ever since that day, he’s tried talking to me and flirting with me, similarly to the way he was BEFORE all this shit started. I was venting to a friend about what he was doing and she said to me….”it’s diarrhea of the mouth. Remember when you were little and your mom got mad at you for whatever reason? You’d sit and talk up a storm to try to distract her and make her forget she was mad at you. That’s what he’s doing.” A light bulb went off in my head and I could see that she was right in a way. So I’ve done a little more avoiding and it seems to have gotten better. I do know if it continues, I will say something. I will tell him to back off and to give me some breathing room.

And on that note, I’m going to go check out some blogs on BE and vote on some BOTB’s.

Until next time….