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Foggy morning in the Port of Los Angeles, September 30, 2006.

Until next time…

My day in a nutshell

I have Akismet spam catcher on this here blog of mine. I currently have 88 pieces of spam comments to delete. WTF!?!?! Is up with that?

I’ve been watching football all day. I couldn’t tell you who has played, who has won and lost, etc. I’m just not all that into it today. I’m watching the games and seeing these teams score and my mind is just a blank.

I drank my first bottle of magnesium citrate at noon. It’s done nothing but make me feel pukey and bloated. Fun for me. I know..TMI. Too Much Information, right? Get over it. This is my blog and I’m bitching.

I did three loads of laundry and put away all my clean clothes. I recently purchased some “lingerie” bags for the washer and dryer. I just put my underthings in there and wash em. This way, they don’t get all twisted and tangled together. WOOT!

I put together a small bag for when I go into the hospital. Toothbrush, toothpaste, hair brush, thingy to pull hair back, etc. This is so that if I go home the following day, I can brush my teeth and put on some clean underthings. Or, if they keep me a little longer, I’ll have all that with me anyway.

I started reading a book. Vanish by Tess Gerritsen. It’s so good, I’m forcing myself to put it down for a few minutes of blogging time.

I’m hungry. Mom made me a wonderful breakfast of french toast and bacon. I am now instructed to do the liquid diet thing. It sucks ass, let me tell you.

I cuddled with Josie for a bit today. I love it when she lets me do that. She’s such a little jumble of nerves, she rarely just lays on my chest and lets me pet her. I love my dog.

I thought I was being smart this morning and went to update my iPod on my PC in the office room. I downloaded iTunes and plugged in the iPod and then BAM it tells me I can only have it synced to one computer. I already hit the “update” button. FUCK!!!!!

I just knew that I had erased the 160 songs I had on my iPod. I knew it. I felt it.

I raced to the laptop and booted it up. I plugged in the iPod and held my breath. I did NOT erase my songs. WOOT!!! How I managed to save that shit, I have no idea.

Now I know that I can’t update my iPod from any other machine but this here laptop.

I think I’m done bitching for now. That may change later. I feel like ass and I’m venting here.

Until next time….

Serenity courage and wisdom

If you’ve been reading my blog for awhile, you’ll know I talk about acceptance a lot. I mean A LOT.

The biggest hurdle for me to get over when I first went into Gambler’s Anonymous was accepting that I was a compulsive gambler. I didn’t want to admit defeat. I did not want to let go of my pride and ego. It kept me warm for awhile, ya know?

Per Wiktionary, acceptance is the act of accepting, a receiving what is offered, with approbation, satisfaction, or acquiescence; esp., favorable reception; approval; as, the acceptance of a gift, office, doctrine, etc.

“the acceptance of a gift” I like this portion of the definition because that’s what I’ve let come into my life. A gift. The gift of acceptance. Not only did I learn acceptance, I realized it was the one thing that could help me get through any kind of situation I was in.

No matter what the situation is, if I accept it for what it is, I can get through it and I can survive it. If I struggle with acceptance, I struggle with letting it go and dealing with it in a healthy, productive way.

Take for example, the mortgage situation my mom and I are in currently. I have struggled with accepting this situation because I have a hard time believing anyone could be as deceptive as Finance Lady.

However, this situation is very real and the more I fight it and the more I lean away from the acceptance I need, the less likely I will deal with this in a healthy way. So I’ve started dealing with it in a productive, pro-active way. Or at least, I intend too.

I say I intend too, because in 2 days time I will be having major surgery and will be in the hospital for at the very least, 24 hours. I go in Monday morning at 7am and the surgery is scheduled for 9am. They will keep me over night and longer, if necessary.

I decided I was trying to deal with too many things all at once. The house stuff, work stressors, my medical/physical health problems. In the last several days, I have gotten to a point where I think about the house situation a lot, yet I’m focusing on my health and getting ready for surgery.

In the Serenity Prayer, the first line is “God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.”

Imagine that, “accept” the things I cannot change. I can’t change the situation the way it happened. All I can do is accept it for what it is and move forward. Find a way out of the situation.

The second line of the Serenity Prayer is “Courage to change the things I can.” There is only one thing I can change in this world and that’s me. I can change the way I react, I can change the way I behave. What I can’t change is how other people are. There’s a saying in GA “People, places and things have no control over me. Unless I give it to them.”

Courage to make changes to fix any situation is difficult and sometimes all consuming. Sometimes it’s easy and sometimes it’s hard.

The third line in the prayer is “And the wisdom to know the difference.” OK that this will allow me to tell the difference in situations on what I can change and what I cannot change. I can’t change outside myself. Period. I know this, I live this principle every day.

Yet, there I was letting the situation with the Finance Lady bowl me over and take control of my life. Who gave her that control? I did. Who can take that control back? I can.

This post kind of rambles, but my point is that acceptance is the key for me. I’m refocusing my energy on the acceptance level I found when I first went to meetings.

Until next time….

Super long ass meme!

I was catching up on all my favorite blogs this morning, when I found this meme at APODB. So I decided since I have absolutely nothing to blog about today, being Saturday (this may change by the afternoon time) I would do this meme for shits and giggles. It’s long, it’s drawn out, but it gives me something to do and gives you something to read! It only took me about 40 minutes to complete!!!!

DO YOU SNORE?
Not that I know of unless I’m sick

ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
Depends on the situation!

WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR?
spiders and heights.

AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?
Naw…I liked lego’s but I couldn’t make anything out of them

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF “REALITY” TV?
Take it or leave it. I do enjoy watching Survivor tho

DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
sometimes, yes I do

WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
I think I was…at least, I’ve been told I was

IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?
sometimes it is, sometimes it isn’t.

WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
black….what kind of question is this? LOL

DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
Hell no. I do sing in the car tho

HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?
ugh, hell no. Look at my worst fears

ANY SECRET TALENTS
hmmm not that I know of yet. I think it’s a secret

WHAT’S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
A beach somewhere exotic

CAN YOU SWIM?
Yup

HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE DONNIE DARKO?
I don’t believe I have…sounds vaguely familiar tho

DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE?
Uhhhh a little but not too much…

HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?
I have never counted….

CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?
LOL no

DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENER?
electric, makes it much easier on my wrist

WHAT’S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
Am I suppose to have a stand on it?

IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
I don’t know….maybe…if I were to meet the right guy

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Sometimes

WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
stupid people. OK seriously, codeine and pollen

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, “I LOVE YOU” ?
yesterday to my mom

DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
nope

HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
cook preferrably…scrambled or over medium

ARE BLONDES DUMB?
some are, some aren’t.

WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?
man I think the dryer or washer eats that shit

WHAT TIME IS IT?
10:00

DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
That would be Sodapop. DUH

IS MCDONALD’S DISGUSTING?
depends on what ya get there

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
yesterday when I went to pick up Josie from the groomers

DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
showers. Unless I’m super stressed, then I disinfect the tub and take a hot bubble bath!

IS SANTA CLAUS REAL?
For every kid out there, he’s definitely real

DO YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR NECK KISSED?
Why yes I do, thanks for askin

ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
Not really

WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
dr pepper, cigarettes, Don Francisco Vanilla Nut coffee

CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?
creamy!

CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK?
sometimes

HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?
Nope, hope I never HAVE too.

IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
illegal drug free, yes. I’ll take my pain meds and headache stuff, thanks

ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
I have been lately

WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
green

DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?
most of the time, yes

ARE YOU PSYCHIC?
Not really psychic, no but I’m very intuitive.

HAVE YOU READ CATCHER IN THE RYE?
Nope

DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?
no

HAVE YOU EVER STOLEN MONEY?
most likely

CAN YOU SNOWBOARD?
nope!

DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?
yes I do like camping!!!!

DO YOU SNORT WHEN YOU LAUGH?
hahah yes, sometimes when I’m laughing really hard

DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?
yes I do.

ARE DOGS A MAN’S BEST FRIEND?
yeah sometimes

YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?
yes I do

CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?
Not anymore…I used to be able to do it

DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES?
sometimes, but I usually recognize it

IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY?
not really

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
noodles last night for dinner

DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH?
sometimes

HOW MANY PEOPLE DO YOU LIKE RIGHT NOW?
well that’s a loaded question….how do you mean “like”? I like lots of people…and then I LIKE only one

WHAT’S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?
hmmm most of them out there!

DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?
I don’t even know what that is so I guess not!

FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT?
Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

How did you find it?

I usually use Sitemeter to see how people find my blog. But today, I’m doing something a little different. I’m taking the stats from Awstats on my c-panel for my blog here.

There were quite a few keyphrases used in different search engines where people found my blog. It’s quite interesting really, to see what kinds of things people are looking for.

I had some normal, boring type stuff, with all the song lyrics I use. I get TONS of searches on different song lyrics. Blue October, Hoobastank, Snow Patrol, etc etc.

I get a fuckton of searches for Miami Ink. Several different search phrases are used when people are looking for Miami Ink. There are too many to list. What surprises me, is I have not talked about Miami Ink lately and suddenly I’m getting all these searches for it. Hmmmm.

I’ve gotten a few searches for the recovery type stuff I’ve been posting. Someone searched a “list defects of character” and “the principles of the program”

Someone searched for 401k plan defect deferred comp HUH! That’s an interesting search phrase. I have no idea what it means.

And now, for the list of one time searches. Or searches that just made me ask WHAT THE FUCK?

karaoke cops.com All I could do was laugh. WTF? LOL

novasure pregnancy Just to let ya know, getting pregnant AFTER having a novasure procedure done is bad bad baddddddd. That would be why the doc tied my tubes at the same time!

mulderry Looking for Stephen Mulderry? He’s the 9/11 victim I did my tribute on.

one night stand blog There’s a blog for one night stands? WOW!!! That’s interesting!!

sympathy illness partner I’ve heard of people feeling “sympathy” pains for their spouse/partner/whatever.

soda pop girl games Yeah, OK. The searches are getting interesting now people!

kimi s clit piercing WHAT THE FUCK is that???? Who is Kimi and why is this search phrase bringing people to the Soda Stand? WTF?

soda pop fuck you photos WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Someone I chat with told me that a girl stuck a 2 liter bottle of soda up her hoo-ha and they are probably looking for that. Again, I ask….WHAT.THE.FUCK.

i need mother figure spanking ROFL Now that is just too funny for a smart ass comment.

Until next time….

Dedication Friday

OK I haven’t done one of these for awhile and yesterday, my FOAD sucked ass. So here it is, this is a song by Three Days Grace called Just Like You. I have always believed in karma and what comes around goes around. I have also always been grateful that I’m not a deceitful, lying, two faced bitch. This song goes out to the Finance Lady who truly fucked us on our home loan. Our payments just went up this month, we just got the statement yesterday and it’s almost $200 more now. Yeah, that was AFTER she said our payments would NOT go up for a year. Fucking bitch. I hate her.

I’m doing this one a little different. I’m not posting all of the lyrics, because seriously, it’s really for a relationship that is breaking up. I’ve posted the lyrics that remind of the Finance Lady and that’s it. If you want to read the rest of the lyrics, go here and then click on Just Like You.

Three Days Grace – Just Like You

I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you

I could be fake
I could be stupid
You know I could be just like you

You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way

I could be cold
I could be ruthless
You know I could be just like you

I could be weak
I could be senseless
You know I could be just like you

You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you

FOAD Thursday or not

I don’t have a FOAD today. I know. I suck. No one and nothing has pissed me off more than the Finance Lady so I just can’t beat the FOAD from last week.

Nothing seems to compare to that FOAD. HAH! I’ve had some irritations at work, but nothing serious. I’m now off work until I’m healed from my surgery.

For other FOAD participants, go here. I’m sure someone on that list has a better FOAD than I did.

12 Things about you that are perfect just the way they are

I read Glamour magazine and every now and then (hasn’t happened lately) I like to post some of their “lists” they have in the back of the magazine. Along with this list, will be some witty (if not off color) banter from me!

The list for today is 12 Things About You That Are Perfect Just the Way They Are
by Kimberly Bonnell and Pamela Redmond Satran
Glamour November 2006

1. Your checkered past. A little wild phase keeps you from having a checkered future. (Good Lord that’s good to know!!!)

2. The way you walk – it’s unique and it gets you were you’re going. (Well alright. I’ll just keep the walk I have!)

3. Your car singing voice. (Yeah, I think it’s pretty perfect too!)

4. Any funny physical quirk your sister has too. It’s all part of the bond you share. (Well shit, I don’t have a sister!)

5. How your hair parts. Don’t fight Mother Nature. (So that’s what I’ve been doing wrong. I’ve been fighting Mother Nature. HEH)

6. The way you reach orgasm. Whatever works, honey! (Woo! good to know. However I’m slowly forgetting what that word means. I think that’s a bad thing)

7. Your collarbone. (HUH. Interesting. Mine’s been hurting lately. I wonder what that means?)

8. Your homegrown accent. Unless you’re up for an Oscar, don’t you dare change it. (I don’t have one of those. I did however, pick up a slight southern accent last time I went to visit my brother)

9. You silly sense of humor (now the only trick is finding someone else who shares it.) (HUH. I kinda like my silly sense of humor so no worries about changing that)

10. Your uncool favorite drink. Fuzzy Navels forever baby!! (This reminds me of way back in the day when I’d go to 7-11, buy a big gulp of ice and then fill it with Peach Schnapps and Orange Juice. YUMMY!)

11. Your gut instincts. (Everytime I don’t follow my gut instincts, I end up in a situation like this financial fiasco we are in with the house. I’ll never fucking ignore them again.)

12. Any body part that’s really strong – whether or not it jiggles a little. (That makes me laugh. I can’t even think of something funny to say to that.)

A fabulous meeting

OK shoot me. I forgot to take my camera to dinner with Mr. Fab and company. We decided to meet at the Las Vegas Hilton, where Mr. and Mrs. Fab were staying. Quark’s Bar and Restaurant was the chosen place.

I get there right about 5:20, 10 minutes early. Which was OK, cause it took me a few minutes to find the place. Yes, I live here and I’ve never been to the Star Trek Experience. The closest I’ve gotten to it is the bar in the casino part of it before the Metro Christmas party each year. HAHA.

I get there and I text Mr. Fab and let him know that I’m there, standing next to a life size Quark. It was quite disturbing really. A life size Quark. GAH! I’ve only seen that thing on Deep Space Nine. But hey, I was enjoying the people watching aspect of the whole place.

Star Trek Experience and the shops around there provide much entertainment when it comes to the people watching. Yikes.

We were also meeting Nobody and Fantastagirl, who were in town celebrating their 10th anniversary.

We get seated and the conversation seemed to flow quite freely for people who just met. I like that when it happens. It doesn’t happen often, but when it does and the whole group of people just “click” it’s an awesome thing.

I really like Fantastagirl. Funny, open and honest. From Iowa to boot. It was quite entertaining listening to them. Their grocery stores close on Sundays. HUH? I don’t understand that concept. LOL

Mr. Fab is even more Fabulous in person than he is online. He was just as funny, if not funnier, than he is on his blog and online. Mrs. Fab is sweet and funny as well and I really like her.

We sat down for dinner at 5:30 or 5:35 and I did not get home until 8:15. We were enjoying ourselves!!! After dinner, we sat and chatted up a storm.

We walked out of the Star Trek Experience and took some pictures. Fantastagirl and Mr. Fab had their cameras. I, on the other hand, was a total ditz and forgot mine.

Mr. Fab and Fantastagirl, I expect pictures emailed to me ASAP. Thanks for a wonderful evening my new friends. I enjoyed myself and it was awesome hanging out with the four of you.

Until next time…

The one where I ramble a bit

In just a few hours, I’ll be heading to the Las Vegas Hilton to meet Mr. and Mrs. Fab. This will be interesting to say the least! If you’ve never read his blog, click the link and go check it out. Very funny!

I’m feeling a little better today, calming down quite a bit. I went to the doctor’s office to pick up my instructions packet and sign my waiver. The waiver is just giving him permission to switch from laproscopy surgery to abdominal if needed. It also gives him permission to remove the 2nd ovary if needed. I just know you wanted to know that shit and that’s why I posted it!

Before going to meet Mr. Fab, I need to drop off a prescription for something I have to drink the day before surgery (that would be this Sunday.) It’s going to be gross and I probably won’t be around a lot that day LOL. I will save you the information on that except the name of the stuff is Magnesium Citrate. You can check it out on Wikipedia or Webmd if you are that curious.

Lately I’ve heard a lot of people complaining about one thing or another. Complaining about co-workers not doing something this way or that way, complaining about their review they get from IT2M. Seriously. WTF?!?! If you don’t want to get ripped to shreds, don’t fucking submit your site for the review. Period. Lots of drama going on over there. It’s been entertaining and it definitely took my mind off my own problems.

I had a conversation with a co-worker yesterday, who was complaining about another person not doing a report the way this person would have done it. I told them to fuck off. Not in so many words, but in a round about sort of way. Get over it. Takes two seconds to explain to someone the correct way to do it and if it’s not against policy, who the fuck cares? I told this person to fix it and show the person why they were fixing it. I think the bitch was going to give birth to a cow. When she asked me why, I responded with a “because I’m having surgery on Monday and I don’t have time to play babysitter for you kids up front.” That shut her up.

It’s overcast today. Supposed to rain. Henderson is getting pounded. Here? Not so much. That’s OK though, will make my driving to the Hilton much easier and not so crazy!

I rambled quite a bit in this post. Hey, how bout them Tigers and Cardinals? Do you think Kenny Rogers cheated? I don’t. Actually I don’t care, so I guess it doesn’t really matter.

Until next time….