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My, how time flies!

As I sat at work today, I was thinking back to 6 years ago today. Same date, same day of the week. I walked into my first Gambler’s Anonymous meeting on a Monday night at 8pm. It was July 30, 2001 and I was lost.

I didn’t know who I was or where I was going. All I knew is that I was done. I was done being self destructive and feeling worthless.

I was done spending paycheck after paycheck. I was done not doing anything other than going to the casinos after work or on my weekends and spending every penny I had.

I was tired. I was sick and tired. I was sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. I was bankrupt; emotionally and financially. I was an emotional basket case (even moreso than I am now LOL).

My life was saved. I became a different person. I became a better person. I learned how to live life on life’s terms. I learned how to be a good friend, and I got great friends in return.

I sought my soul, but could not see
I sought my God, but He alluded me
I sought my brothers and sisters and found all three.

Quoted from the inside of the little yellow book I was given upon joining GA.

I will be forever grateful that my Higher Power led me to Gambler’s Anonymous. I will be forever grateful for the gifts I have recieved. I have recieved the gift of self awareness to the point that it drives me insane sometimes. I have recieved the gift of knowing I’m a better person today than I was 6 years ago.

I thank my Higher Power every day for removing the urge to gamble and for being here for me no matter how shallow, self absorbed or freakish I’m being. He never left my side. He never alluded me. He never gave up on me. And today, I’m reaping the benefits of a better way of thinking and living.

Today I can looking myself and others in the face and know that I’m a better person.

Until next time…

2 Responses to “My, how time flies!”

  • Erin says:

    Congratulations on your 6 years – that is more than impressive. It really shows how strong you are and how well you have done for yourself!!!

  • Angel says:

    Yes, congratulations on six years, that is awesome!! You should do something nice for yourself to celebrate. Maybe a bracelet, or something that you have been looking forward to.