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I have been horribly sick all day long.  Hang overs suck ass and I’m not going to drink again for a very long time.   When I do drink again, I will NOT be drinking as much as I did last night.  Ugh!  My whole body is aching, my head hurts, and I have not really moved off the couch all day long.  It’s been bad.

I’m thinking of going to sleep now, but I started watching a movie with Rick Schroeder, and I just luff him so I’m not going to bed yet.   I’ve set my alarm for 7am because I am meeting the Boss Lady at one of the buildings in the morning.

I still love my new do.   After my shower today, I let my hair dry naturally and it’s really quite cute like this. 

I’m going back to the couch now to not move until it’s time to go to bed.

Until next time….

WOW!  I have not had that much to drink in quite some time!  I drank a little more than 3/4 of a bottle of Southern Comfort and an entire 2 liter bottle of Dr. Pepper.  LOL  We started shortly after 5pm and I don’t think I stopped drinking until about midnight.   Needless to say, I did not drive anywhere last night.

I passed out on Miss Laci’s couch, fully clothed and covered with the pink afghan Miss Ann made her.  LOL  It was quite soft and cuddly.

I woke up right around 9am and came home shortly after that.   I needed to stop for cigarettes and some greasy food.  However, I was so focused on getting home, I didn’t.   I made some coffee and I’m ready to go lay on the couch and sleep some more.  I just might do that!

Until next time….

There was always a way to get me out of my funk, even when I’d get into one in Vegas.   I would make a major change with my hair and I’d feel TONS better about myself and the world as a whole.

For the last week, I have been considering cutting off the mop I was calling hair.  I just didn’t know what I wanted.   So I did some research last night and this morning.   And then I went and did it.   Look below the fold and be awed and shocked

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As I’ve mentioned, I’ve been in a funk for a few days.  I was horribly sad and homesick last night.  I still am homesick, I’m just not as sad this morning.

This evening (around 5pm) I’ll be heading over to Miss Laci’s so that she, Miss Monique and I can have some cocktails, eat greasy food and play the Wii.   It will be much fun, I’m sure and I’m hoping it gets me out of this funk completely. 

Last night, after watching the videos of the Monte Carlo fire for like 2 hours, I was looking online at hotels Las Vegas. Just for shits and giggles, I wanted to see how much people pay to go there. I’m so glad I know lots of people there, I won’t have to ever spend that money. LOL

I’ve decided that I need to come up with a contingency plan.  This part time job will definitely help me pay a few bills, however, my money will still run out at some point soon and so I need to decide what to do IF that happens.   I’m not being negative, I’m being realistic.   If I don’t get a full time job, my money IS going to run out.  And this leads me to believe I need a plan just in case that does happen.   I believe it will NOT happen, however, I need to have a plan just in case.  Ya know?   It makes me sick to my stomach even thinking that, but one day this next week I do need to sit down and decide what to do.

The recruiter never called me back yesterday.  Which, I kind of knew she wouldn’t.  She called me at 8:30 to let me know she was setting up an interview for me.  She said she would get back to me as soon as she had a date and time for the interview.   I was home until 12:30 and then home by 4:30.  I did not miss any calls, nor did I receive any from her.  GAH! 

Until next time…

I got home from work at about 4:30 p.m. Shortly after I got home, my mom called me to ask if I had seen the news. The Monte Carlo Hotel/Casino in Las Vegas Caught Fire.

I’m at the website of KVBC, their local NBC affiliate, watching the videos of the local news coverage out there. Thankfully this fire was nothing like the 1980 fire at the MGM when a fire killed 80 some people and injured hundreds of others.

During these videos, I’m seeing all of the news anchors I used to watch daily. Kendall Tenney, Denise Rausch, Dana Wagner, Robert Santos. *le sigh*

As I’ve been watching these videos, I’m becoming more and more homesick. Which sucks ass because I can’t even afford to fly back for a weekend or something.

I made a decision earlier this week to talk (or write) about how I was feeling. Exactly. No pretending I’m feeling OK when I’m not. No hiding my emotions or my thoughts. To be up front, personal and in your face (not literally.)

I’m homesick. I miss my friends. I miss my job. I miss the familiarity Las Vegas gave me. I miss my GA meetings. I miss the bright skyline of the Strip. This does not mean I want to move back. It just means I miss it.

I’m feeling very sad and funky and I felt that way before I heard about this fire. I don’t know where the feelings were coming from earlier today, but I know where they are coming from right now. It’s from watching these videos.

I’m going to shut off the videos now and go do something to take my mind off of Las Vegas and how much I’m missing the people there right now. I might even just lay on the couch and cry for awhile, because I can.

Until next time…

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I’m trying to decide when to post my 2nd anniversary post.   It’s not a huge, great post, but it’s my bucket list and a few other thoughts of what has happened to me since I started blogging 2 years ago.

I might post it on the 28th or 29th.   I’d say I would leave it up at the top, like a sticky post until the 30th but I only like to use sticky posts on important stuff.  I don’t know.  I supposed I’ll figure it out as the day draws closer.

Miss Monique is famous now.  Read all about it here.

I need to go get ready for work.  I’m procrastinating again, which is becoming quite the nasty habit of mine.  I played some bowling and baseball on the Wii and now I need to really focus on getting ready.  Otherwise I’ll be flying outta here half ready and feeling even more anxious than I already am.

Until next time…

It was only a matter of time until environmentalists starting taking over the shoe industry, don’t ya think?

Po-Zu, an environmentally friendly footwear brand has finally come to the United States. They offer collections of shoes, boots and slippers. For anyone looking for a pair of green shoes, this would be the website for you.

They have shoes made with Bark cloth and un-bleaches and un-dyed wool fleece. They even use edible shoe cream. Umm, wow!

Po-Zu is brought here by two former Birkenstock executives and has already gotten interest from different retailers and top department stores like Barney’s.

Let’s all go green and get a pair of these shoes!

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And I have no idea why.   I woke up feeling super anxious and jittery.  I don’t think my coffee drinking is helping those feelings much.

My leg is bouncing up and down and I can’t seem to calm down.  I don’t know what is going on inside this body of mine but I feel very fidgety today.  And I’ve only been away an hour and a half.  Go figure.

Stupid recruiter lady (the one who forgot what I was applying for a few weeks ago) just called me and said someone is looking to interview Admins, so she’s going to set up an interview for me.   I told her OK and I’d be looking forward to hearing from her.   Now, this is what she did last time a few weeks ago.  And when I didn’t hear back from her, I called and emailed and got that phone call about no HR manager positions being open right now.   We’ll see how she does on this one.  LOL

I’m trying to ween myself away from Firefox.  It’s been doing some weird stuff lately and not displaying pages correctly.  And it’s also been doing some weird shit where it won’t let me get to a page at all.  And when I try IE7, I get to the page just fine and it displays beautifully.   Go figure.

I imported all my bookmarks from FF into IE7 and we’ll see how this does for me.  I haven’t used IE exclusively in a very long time and I don’t know how I’ll like it, but so far (the last two days) it hasn’t been too bad.   I’ve read about a few people having problems with FF so I know it’s not just me.  Thank God!

I’m still feeling a bit congested, but nothing major today.   I’m also still considering a quit date for my smoking.  The lozenges are so expensive though and right now, I don’t have a lot of extra cash to be spending on anything, lozenges or cigarettes, so I’m going to have to decide quickly, eh?

I have some shows on my DVR I need to watch.  I’ll probably do that tonight when I get home from work.   I’m meeting the Boss Lady at 1pm and I’ll be there for a few hours since we’ll be touring two buildings that they manage. 

I feel kind of weird with this supposed interview coming up while working part time for Boss Lady and Boss Man.   I’m going to have to figure out how to do both if I get hired at the full time gig.   I want to help Boss Lady as much as possible and arrange and organize their stuff.   I also want to finish this project I’m on and get that done so they don’t have to worry about it.   And wouldn’t that be a bonus, having TWO jobs when I had none two weeks ago.  LOL

It was 5 degree when I woke up this morning.  5 mother fucking degrees.  What is up with this cold?  It needs to go the fuck away cause I hate it.  Loathe it actually.  I know I’m considered a whiner and a wimp in some circle when it comes to this cold.  But DAMN 5 degrees is cold!!!  It’s supposed to snow tonight.  It’ll get warmer.   This weekend is supposed to be up in the 40’s, so that’s a good thing. 

Until next time….

When I worked at Odyssey Records, there was a band that was pretty popular with the “emo” type folk called DramaRama or something like that.   I don’t even remember what song they had out which made them a one hit wonder.

I am going to admit some things here.  Be sure not to tell anyone, I wouldn’t want my reputation sullied.  kthxbai

I love drama.  When it doesn’t involve me.  I like to watch from the outskirts and eat my popcorn and see what happens next.  It’s like a great movie you can’t get enough of.   Sometimes it’s like a train wreck that you just can’t take your eyes off.  You HAVE to watch the wreckage because your life is boring, you need something to entertain you.  I really should have used “I” and “me” in there, not you.  Cause I’m talking about me, not you.

I love to gossip.  With my closest friends and we rarely ever do it maliciously.  Todd and I had a rule when we were together.  Let the gossip and criticism begin.  We only did it with each other and whatever was said never left the two of us.  It’s much like that now with my small circle of friends.

I do not lie.  I may evade questions and say I’m uncomfortable answering that question, but I do not lie.  I used to lie all the time.  When I was practicing my disease and deep in my addiction, I loved lying.  I would lie about how many pennies I had in my purse just so you’d feel sorry for me, for even two seconds.   I used to turn friends against friends.  I used to immediately take sides and abash the person I felt was wrong.  Even if I was the instigator and I started it.   I was evil like that.

I’m still quite a bitch.  Don’t let my friendly and compassionate ways fool you.  I am like a mama bear when it comes to protecting my own.  Whether that be my family or my friends.  I will go toe to toe with anyone who hurts them.  Unless it was not a malicious intention to hurt them.  Then I’ll just fuss at the person and probably not interact the same way I once did.

I can count on one hand of fingers how many people (friends – not including family) I can trust.  My two BFF’s in Vegas and mah three bitches.  Those five people are precious and dear to me. 

I am extremely protective of my dogs as well.  This is their domain.  I am a part of their pack.  They rule this house, even though I do try to ascertain some of that control from them every now and then.   I once kicked the shit out of a german shepherd cause he came after Josie while I was at a dog park.  The owner wasn’t happy with me, but I told him if he’d control his fucking mutt, I wouldn’t have had to kick him for chasing after a dog 143 pounds lighter than he was.  Fuckstick.

I am a Libra, so that means I love balance and harmony.  Supposedly.  For the most part, I do.  I love having my little routine on the internet and IRL.  I love knowing where I’m going and what I’m going to be doing.   I do not like being thrown for a loop, for any reason.  It freaks me the fuck out and I feel like I’m losing control.

The only games I play are the online variety or on the Wii variety.  I do not play head games, I do not tease, promise something I can’t commit to, nor do I say something I do not mean.   I mean what I say and I say what I mean.  Period.

I can still be intimidated though.  However, I won’t tell you how because I don’t want you to intimidate me.   It takes a lot to accomplish that, but it can happen.

I’m ticklish.  Horribly, uncontrollably and horrendeously.  I hate it.  I have, however, learned to control the urge to giggle when I’m getting pedicures.  This is an art you must master if your feet are ticklish.  Seriously.

I love Southern Comfort and Dr. Pepper.  I just had two cocktails tonight while I was playing Marble Lines on Crackbook and some baseball on the Wii.  Which, BTW, I kicked ass at both.  I’m getting better at the baseball, both left and right handed batting.

Now that I’m done sharing my inner most thoughts with you, I’m going to go bowl on the Wii for a bit and drink some water so I don’t go to sleep buzzed and wake up with a hang over.  That would suck ass, especially since I have to meet the Boss Lady tomorrow.

Until next time….

Although my brain was foggy most of the day, I made quite a bit of headway on the project I’m working on.   I had a few distractions here and there; emails, twitters, TV stuff.  I ended up shutting the TV off and turning on my iTunes so I could concentrate a bit more.

Tomorrow I’m meeting the Boss Lady at one of the properties at 1pm, so I’ll work on the manual a little bit before meeting her there.   I’ll also be receiving my first paycheck!  WHEEEE  It won’t be much, but it will cover a bill or two!

I’m feeling better than I was yesterday, mentally.   I think when Todd’s memories flood my mind so suddenly, I just kind of lose my footing and my mind takes me back.  I dealt with the feelings though (insomnia helps you deal with things as you think everything to death) and I’m feeling better for it.   There was a reason it was brought back to me yesterday and it made me feel even closer (if that’s possible) to him.

Today is the 9 year anniversary for my Aunt who is in GA.  WHEEE  She is the one who got me into my first meetings.  Congrats to her!

Off to do some bowling and tennis on the Wii.

Until next time….