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Archive for May, 2008

My head is still hurting.  Horribly.  I’ve decided I’m going to the Immediate Care center tomorrow after work.  I just can’t take it anymore.  If they were still open right now, I’d go. 

I went to GB’s house for a Memorial Day BBQ.  It started raining on us, but we BBQ’d anyway!  I got some good food, good company, a game of pool and then I came home because my head exploded again while I was there.

At the end of this weekend, I did not accomplish half the stuff that was on my to-do list I posted earlier in the weekend.  I did, however, clean my bedroom, the 2nd room and the bathroom.  I got the kitchen halfway done before falling ill again.  I’m pretty tired of being sick so much.  Let me tell ya.

I called the person to cancel the concert.  Uh-huh.  Let me tell you how that went:

Me:  Hey, how’s it going?

Him:  Good, how are you?  We’re still on for Friday, right?

Me:  Weeeelllll that would be why I’m calling….

Him:  Oh no, Sodapop, nooooo

Me:  I put my finances on paper and it’s ugly, I can not afford the ticket or the gas to go up there.

Him:  Well then don’t worry about the price of either of them.

Me:  What?

Him:  Don’t worry about it, you’re covered.

Me:  Ummm well I don’t know if/when I’d be able to pay you back.

Him:  Well that’s OK, you wouldn’t have too.  It’s my 2 year GA anniversary, I really want you to be there.

And then we went back forth with me saying “Are you sure?”  Him saying “Yes.”  Several times and then I finally said “OK, I’ll just say thank you.”   He then said he would call me this week (uh-huh) and let me know what time and the exact location of where we are meeting.

I thought about it, however I’m going to continue meditating and praying about it.  As a GA member, it’s a honor he would want me to be at his “celebration” of 2 years bet free.  Especially after having only known me about 3.5 months.   As a GA member, I’m set to spend some more time with him. 

As a woman with a bit of a crush on a possible gay guy, with a possible boyfriend?  I’m feeling quite awkward.

*le sigh*

I’ll report back Friday night when I get back from the concert.  Ugh.  Hopefully my ears don’t bleed too much.  Cross your fingers for me.

Until next time…

Yes, I’m posting twice…right in a row. 

I moved to the Midwest, knowing about the tornado activity that would take place in the Spring and Summer.   I knew what I was getting into when I moved here.  While I’ve been scared senseless during a few storms and tornado warnings, I’ve been blessed in not having been affected directly by them, yet.

Last night, as I was reading Twitter, Miss Britt came on and said that her home town in Iowa had been destroyed.  Completely demolished by what they are estimating to be a F-4 tornado.  How devastating.   Britt’s in-laws lost everything.  Their house completely flattened.  I can only imagine the pain and anguish Britt, her husband and their families, are feeling right now.

I’m asking that you pray for her family, her husband’s family and especially Miss Britt and her husband to get through this rough, devastating time.   Britt, I pray that you and your husband find the strength to get through this and be there for the rest of your family back home.  Know that I am thinking of all of you and if there’s anything I can do from so far away, do not hesitate to let me know.

Until next time…

Every now and then, I start thinking about miracles.  Are there miracles out there?  I believe there are.  I believe in miracles.  I believe in the small miracles as well as the big miracles.  I was on the phone with GB last night and he made me promise to make a doctor’s appointment either today or tomorrow, even though money is tight.  My sinus infection is getting worse and sometimes when I cough, I start to throw up.  Right now, the left side of my head hurts so much I can hardly move it.  It starts just next to my nose and wraps around my head to the base of my skull.   I’m miserable.

I went onto Humana’s website to find out what providers they have and where I could go for “Immediate” or “Urgent” care today or tomorrow.  Today if they are open cause of the holiday and tomorrow if they are closed.   I went into their Immediate Care Center list and found the place I went a few months ago.  WHEEE that’s a good thing.  This means that my doctor I was seeing MIGHT be on my provider list.  I went to the provider list in a hurry and found that she IS on my provider list for my insurance that I will have on the 1st.

This to me, is a small miracle.  I was dreading having to find a new doctor and/or place to go for my medical care.   I really liked this doctor I had and I was upset I wouldn’t be able to see her again.  I cried this morning when I found out she is on my list.

Until next time…

Post title from Song For the Lonely by Cher

I fell asleep quickly on my couch last night at around 9:15.  I woke up at 9:45 and went to bed.  My cell phone started ringing at 10:15 pm.  I was so lost in sleep I dropped the phone while trying to answer it.  It was a woman in the program.  The same woman who thought I was not befriending her because she’s a lesbian.

We have been assigned a workshop together at the conference coming up and she’s getting anal about putting shit together and meeting to do that.   When she realized I was sleeping, instead of apologizing for waking me, she said “Oh I figured Saturday nights you were a late night person.”

WTF!  Who says shit like that?  I responded with the fact that I’ve been sick and what normal person calls people at 10pm anyway?  It’s clear to me that I need to set some boundaries with this bitch before she’s calling me at all times of day and night.   Since I’m striving to do what normal people do, I have to set these boundaries with people. 

Needless to say, I went back to sleep after she tried to get me to commit to meeting with her today or tomorrow.  I told her I needed sleep and would call her sometime today.  Ugh.  I dislike people like that.  Seriously.

I slept like shit.  I woke up every 2 hours or so.  I wandered the apartment at one point and even answered a few emails from a friend back in Vegas at like 4:30 this morning.  LOL

I’m now sitting here, drinking my coffee and listening to some Cher songs I downloaded from iTunes recently.

I’m still not any closer to decided what to do about the phone call that was never returned.  I know I need to cancel, it’s the adult thing to do.  I also know that something has changed in this friendship since I expressed myself, and that bothers me.  It actually makes me want to confront the person and call them out on their shit.  But I won’t.  Yet.

I need to go get ready for church.  I was going to cancel on GB, but then I realized I miss church, so I’m going to go.  I might sit in the back or at the very least on the aisle seat so if I have a coughing fit, I can get up and leave the sanctuary.   I am also considering going, but watching the service from Cafe 920 in the common area of the church.   At least I’d be there, ya know?

I need to finish my traffic school today and then get to work on that spreadsheet for GB so I can start supplementing my income.  I didn’t do any work on it yesterday or Friday, so today and tomorrow I’m going to spend quite a few hours doing the entry on it.

Until next time…

I totally stole that title.  I had Miss Lucy on my mind and well…ya know.

As you all know, I had made plans with CBFI1 to go to a George Jones concert.  Even though I do not like GJ very much, I was willing to suck it up and go.  Cause.  Well.  I like the guy (CBFI1, not George Jones).  Well now, after putting all of my finances on paper and doing a “pressure” relief meeting and financial inventory with my sponsor, I have to cancel said concert.

While I’m not ALL that upset, I found it difficult to make that phone call.  I finally got the nerve last night and got his voice mail.   I left a message that I was going into a GA meeting, give me a call after 9pm, etc etc.   He texted me shortly after that, to let me know he got my message and would call me after 9pm.

Never happened.

Now here I sit, another day closer to the concert and I HAVE to cancel.  I won’t just not show up.  Not my style.  But I have been sitting here thinking about texting the cancellation.  Or even emailing the cancellation.  OY!

I had been feeling and thinking that he was acting quite strangely lately, but felt it was just me and my bruised ego.   Miss Monique validated my feelings by saying something FIRST. 

I know I won’t get to SEE him before the concert, so I need some suggestions and advice on how to cancel.  Give it to me straight peoples.  Don’t hold it back.

Until next time….

I woke up this morning feeling much worse than yesterday.  I coughed a lot throughout the night.  The girls would not let me sleep in either, so I got out of bed at around 7:30. 

I’m working on getting the energy to go take shower, I had some serious night sweats last night too, so I’m in great need of a shower.   Once I take the shower, my intentions are to clean my bedroom.  Change the sheets, pick up the floor from Chloe and Josie chewing toys and stuff, vacuum, dust.   Those are my intentions.  Will I complete this task?  I’ll let ya know later!

I had volunteered to do a workshop at the conference.  The workshop chairperson chooses a topic for you to do the workshop on.   I somehow ended up with Emotional Transfusion – Changing from emotionally unavailable to emotionally available.  Ironic really.  LOL I’m sure it will be good for me to delve into this topic.  Seriously.  /sarcasm.

I need to finish my traffic school stuff today.

Until next time…

At 3:30pm, we got a call from the Lt. Colonel in charge that everyone was to start their long holiday weekend early.  We were outta there by 3:35, believe me!  I am now off work until Tuesday.  It feels good to have my holidays back and to actually begin getting a routine down again.

I’ve been feeling really positive lately and I know it shows in the way I post.  I’ve also been feeling like crap physically, but because of the job, I haven’t really bitched about how I’m feeling.  Only how lousy I’ve been sleeping.

I am planning on doing a lot of cleaning (spring cleaning I suppose) this weekend and taking books and probably some clothes to Goodwill or some other local charity.  I need to thin out my material objects.  It’s very cluttered here and it’s making me feel all funky.  The Feng Shui is definitely OFF in this here apartment.  I’m hoping to fix that this weekend.  Clutter is bad for the chi (energy) flowing through the room/s.  

I’m going to print up a ba-gua (map) of my apartment and start working on getting this place totally Feng Shui fit.  While some of you may laugh (and that’s OK, I don’t mind), I figured the ancient Chinese who created this system knew what they were doing.  Millions of people all over the country and world practice this.  My turn!

I’m also looking forward to going to church on Sunday.  I have missed the last two services and I’m feeling it spiritually.  Must get back in there!

I’ll be working on the project for GB this weekend too.  I’m hoping to pound out a few more hundred of the customers onto the spreadsheet.  I want to get him knocking on doors and selling stuff so I can make some commission!   He’s going to come up with a contract for me to sign, agreeing to the low hourly wage and then the 10% commission on whatever he sells to one of the customers/leads I have entered onto the spreadsheet.  This could be quite a bit of money.  The man could sell sand to someone dying of thirst.  I swear.  He’s good at selling.

I was checking out some cabinet knobs earlier in the week. Once I get my own place (condo, townhome or patio home), I’m going to look into them again if I don’t like the ones already in place.

I’ve already started my laundry of the clothes I wore during the week.  Might as well get that done tonight and then I’ll have three full days to focus on the cleaning and throwing things out and donating items.  Ya know?

I have some Netflix movies to watch and return so I can get the next ones on my list.  I’m also planning on soaking off my acryllic nails and giving myself a pedicure.  Too much for one weekend?  I hope not.  LOL

Until next time….

I’m on a rollercoaster ride when it comes to sleeping at night.  One night I sleep well and the next (last night) I sleep like shit, waking up every few hours.   I do not feel rested.  I do not feel like I got the type of sleep I needed.  *le sigh*  Thank God it’s Friday!!!!!!

I stayed up a little later than usual, so I thought I’d sleep well.  Right.  That went well.  /sarcasm.

I watched the season finale of Grey’s Anatomy and then went to bed.  I enjoyed this episode, as always I laughed AND cried.  Even after 4 seasons, I love this show.  Yes, it’s had it’s dry/slow patches, but overall the show is incredible.

Have I mentioned how happy I am that it’s Friday?

I’m going to be reading up on the history of the FD here.  It’s the 3rd oldest in the country and we are celebrating our 150th anniversary.  Unfortunately, I made plans the weekend of the huge blow out already and Sex and the City movie wins out.  Is that bad?  LOL

I’m already showered and dressed.  I just need to do my make up and hair.  I need to stop at the ATM on my way to work because it’s coffee money time and I have to make sure I pay my share, since I drink coffee like I’m dying.

I still have no plans for this weekend and I’m going to be keeping it that way.  I have a lot to do around this apartment and I haven’t really had “me” time in awhile.  I am in serious need of “me” time and some naps.  I may nap several times throughout the days this weekend. 

Off to finish getting ready for work.

Until next time…

I got home around 6pm, like I mentioned earlier.  I lazed around a bit after eating some dinner and then I got to work.  

• I finished laundry on my linens AND I folded them and put them away. 
• This included the blankets I needed to wash.
• I worked for 2 hours on the project for GB
• I started my online Traffic School and completed the first 45 minutes to an hour – there was a quiz at the end of that.
• I paid a few bills.
• I fed the girls and gave them fresh water.
• I picked up a bunch of the clothes I had all over my bedroom floor.

I am now watching the season finale of Grey’s Anatomy and I’m going to go to bed directly after that.  Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!!!!!!    WHEEEEEEE  3 day weekend of nothingness, here I come!

Until next time…

You know where the title came from….

I got off of work at 4pm and decided to hit Value City for a great price on some pantsuits. The Manager Lady and The Admiral both went out and bought some “uniforms” so that they didn’t have to decide what to wear every single day. The FD is VERY formal and so not only do I have to call everyone by their title and last name (no first names in a business setting), but I have to remember these titles AND last names. I’m GREAT at remembering first names. Last names and titles? Not so much.

I decided to go to Value City for a black pinstripe or Navy blue pinstripe suit. I got lost. Horribly. I had to call mah bitch who I will now call Sodapop’s personal Mapquest. LOL

I got my suit and two white blouses to go under the blazer of the suit.  All for under $50.  Sodapop LIKES Value City.  A lot.  Seriously.

It took me 45 minutes to find that place.  I was inside for about 20 minutes and then forced myself to leave.  I got home at about 6pm – after having to sit in traffic on the 264 forevah!  I thought my bladder would pop. 

I need to pay some bills tonight and I’m not happy with it.  I have to go two more weeks without a paycheck and this upsets me greatly.  I just started doing that project for GB, so I don’t know when he’s going to want to pay me.  I’ll be getting some commission if he sells stuff off of what I’m creating.  He’s also paying me a low hourly wage to actually put all the information on a spreadsheet.  Guess we’ll see how it goes.

While I am extremely worried about the bills, I’m not so overly panicked as I have been in the past.  I can’t really pay more than my power bill and cell phone bill until June 6.   Everything else will just have to wait.

I am also sending in my money for the traffic school online thing.  I need to do that within the next few days.  *le sigh* 

I can’t believe it’s almost 7pm already.  OY!  I haven’t really done anything except eat a baked potato, start some laundry and paid the cell phone bill online. 

Until next time…