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Archive for December, 2008

Post title is a song title by Rascal Flatts.

I’m avoiding going to bed.  I know it’s because of that dream I had last night.  While it wasn’t super scary and it ended a very positive note, it just kind of freaked me out.

I’m not going to share it here, because for once I feel like keeping something to myself and I’ve shared it with one person already.

I’ve spent my evening packing, taking a hot bubble bath and importing some more discs into iTunes.

Right now, I’m watching the Packers game and I have no intention on trying to stay awake for this one.  Even though I don’t want to go to sleep, I’ll be heading that way shortly after posting this.

Work went by very slowly.  I was super busy in the morning and then by the afternoon I was at a loss for things to do.  I have two more days of this, so I’m taking magazines with me to sit and read when it gets super slow and I can’t find anything to do.

Until next time…

I’m in a Garth Brooks mood.  I imported all of my discs I have of his onto my iTunes tonight.   I also imported a few other cds that I have.

After importing those, I then sync’d the iPod so I can have a Garth Brooks fest tomorrow at work.  YAY!

Here is my day in bullet points:

• I slept well.  Amazingly woke up at 7:30 feeling refreshed and rested.
• Went to church at 10:45 a.m. and laughed more there than I have in months.
• Got home after church and started laundry while watching football.
• Packed a few more dishes/glasses from the china cabinet and ran out of newspaper.
• Went to Walmart on the last Sunday before Christmas!
• Came home and did some more laundry, as well as did a little more packing.
• Imported my discs to iTunes.
• Finished laundry and put it all away.
• Started watching the Giants game at 8pm and that’s what I’m still doing.

I’m awake way past my bedtime and I’m sure I’ll regret this tomorrow, but I’m addicted to my football and I love the Giants.

Once the game is over, which it should be over soon (actually 12 minutes left, which means about 30 more minutes real time) and I’ll go to bed after that.

Tomorrow is Platoon 1 day and that makes me happy.  Co-Worker and I will most likely be the only ones working in the office, as well.  Which will make for a calm, serene day.  As long as no one needs us to put out some fires.

Until next time…

I feel like I’m beating a dead horse when I start to worry about my finances.  I wonder how/when I’ll be able to pay certain bills and start paying back the credit cards.  Some days are better than others.

Today is not a good day.  I have done nothing but worry, think about and obsess over finances.  It could be the fact that I paid some bills online and I have just enough left for a few things from grocery story and a few tanks of gas.  For that, I’m grateful.  It would suck even more if I didn’t have money for gas to get back and forth to work.

Next week it’s just me and Co-Worker.  Everyone else will most likely be on vacation.  Although, I’m sure MBMoE will be there, cause he’s been texting me today too.

And then my mind goes into the stuff with men.  I have a huge crush on MH (as you well know).  It’s to the point he is the first thing I thought of when I woke up from my nap today.   He was the last thing I thought of last night too.   However, I think last night was because of the fact I was watching the news and BAM! there he was.

I’ve got all this packing to do and I’m going bonkers.  I don’t know if I’ll have everything packed in time.   I don’t know when I’ll get cable/internet again when I move.  I have procrastinated to the point I haven’t notified the cable company I’m moving.  I don’t have to worry about the power company right now, the manager here told me so.

I’m worried about making it through this Christmas with my sanity (whatever is left of it anyway) because for the first time in 39 years, I won’t get to spend the holiday with mom.

I talked to mom today and she totally understands my thought processes on why I’m not going down there next week.   My car is running bad enough as it is, if I make that 600 mile trip (both ways), it could get worse.  I can’t afford it right now to maintain the car, let alone fix anything major if it happens. We’ll be on the phone a lot that day, I’m sure.

As this day has progressed, I’ve realized I stress over a lot of stuff and I really need to learn to manage that better.   However, nowadays I don’t deal with my stress the way I used too (gambling) and so I’m struggling with dealing with it face to face.  I’m getting there.

Progress, not perfection, right?

I did, however, read the other day (I’m sorry, I can’t remember who it was) someone say that we can do mental masturbation if we are not careful and sometimes I do that.  I perform mental masturbation when I’m worried about finances.  When I think about making the first move with MH, when I think of questioning my motives in befriending someone else at work.  When I question HIS motives for befriending me.   It’s all just a vicious circle I let myself get into.

For the rest of today, I’m going to enjoy this garlic-garlic dip Manager Lady made and watch CSI.   I’m going to stop worrying and I’m going to stop thinking so much about the same shit over and over again.

I’ll let you know how well that works out for me.

Until next time…

I went to my meeting tonight. It was a good meeting over all. There were seven of us there and I was the only female.

If you know me, you’ll know this does not normally bother me unless the “creepy” people are there.

There was a creepy guy there. He was sitting directly across from me and kept his legs spread out. Thankfully, the old man was wearing pants and not shorts or something. That would have killed me and I would have had to say something. I actually almost said something anyway, but I didn’t. It was disgusting. No one else was sitting like that! It was just…ewwwwwww

I also got myself invited to a GA member’s house for Christmas Eve. This makes me very happy. The only thing I had planned for Christmas Eve was working and going to church (which I’m still going to do – I’m just going to the person’s house after church!)

My Christmas week is now complete. I haven’t mentioned this, but we are NOT getting furloughed. At least, Co-Worker and I are not getting furloughed. Manager Lady and Trainer are, along with everyone else not in the union and the Lt. Colonels and Chief.

The union members are collected $10 per person and we are going to give it to the employees who are being furloughed, to help offset the cost of their losing those days.

Also, along with NOT being off unpaid on the Friday after Christmas? Manager Lady and Trainer are giving us a paid vacation day. Merry Christmas to me!

When they first told us this, I thought I’d be able to get down to Georgia for Christmas. However, we have to work the Sunday after Christmas, so it would only give me 2 days down there and that would just kill me. The thought of the drive being as horrible as it is and then going down Wednesday after I get off work at 4pm and then coming back Friday or Saturday just gives me the hives.

This is why I’m thankful I have GA friends and I get along so well with Manager Lady. They are taking care of me this holiday. I do, however, need to plan my next trip down there to see the family.

At the moment though? I’m going to go sit on the couch, watch TV and probably fall asleep. LOL

Until next time…

New Orleans got snow. Las Vegas got snow. We had a high of 70 degrees today, which broke a record from 1889. Ummm, what’s going on?

I had a fairly good, yet boring, day at work. It was dragging all day long and we all thought it would never end.

I did, however, get a good laugh at someone’s text message mistake. It was quite entertaining after I realized the snafu.

Recently, I put my cell phone number on my email signature at work. I was hoping that someone (you know who) would pick up on that number and yanno, use it! Well, be careful what you wish for, my friends! Someone picked up on it.

Just not the person I wanted to pick up on it. Needless to say, this person has texted me off and on for the last few days.

Here is why I almost choked out:

Msg: Love you very much.

WTF?!?!?!?! I ignored it. I did not respond. At first I couldn’t breathe and then I started laughing so hard, I couldn’t breathe.

Msg: Did not mean to send you that.

Me: I figured that out. hahahaha

Msg: Sending to my sister. It’s her birthday today. Did it make you smile?

Me: It did make me laugh, yes. Happy birthday to your sister, it’s my brothers birthday today too.

Msg: When I sent that, I said “oh no” she is going to think bad things about me.

Me: haha Nahh, I just thought you meant to send it to your wife and somehow sent it to me. No bad thoughts.

Msg: Thanks. Have a great day. When is your birthday?

Ummm needless to say, I ended the conversation at that point.

About half an hour later, I got to see my favorite person (Major Hottie) and swoon quite a bit.

The person with the truck has let Major Hottie know he may not be able to help because he doesn’t know what his wife’s schedule is and doesn’t know if he will have his son. So MH told him we didn’t want him there anyway, we were just using him for his truck. LOL Hmmm I wonder if he knows how close to the truth that really is?

My first thought was, oh God, I’m going to have to carry the heavy shit! And where will we get a truck? MH informed me he has a pick up truck that he doesn’t use very often, but it runs just fine and could be used for the move. YAY! He seems very resourceful. Just another trait to make me swoon. LOL

I have not packed anything else tonight. I decided to take a break (actually give myself a break) and pick up the packing again tomorrow.

I went to the office today to pick up my Avon package (the other package from Passion Parties was just left on my door step), and the manager informed me I can take my time moving outta this apartment. She said there will be no hurry.

She told me to come in Monday the 29th after work and sign the lease and get the keys. She also told me about the other residents in this new building I’m going too and one of them will be getting kicked out soon. She said that they have a lot of foot traffic and she’s put them on warning. We’ll see how that goes!

I will have an older couple above me and then a younger couple in the other upstairs unit. She said the guys on the first floor, right next to my new one, are the only problem in that building and they will soon be gone.

I don’t care. I just want cheaper rent. They’ve been so nice to me here, I am kind of glad I’m staying in this complex. The manager does not take any shit from anyone and she is one tough lady. I love it!

Until next time…

It’s seems to be all I do nowadays after work. I come home, I relax for a few and then I get moving. I’ve pretty much packed up all the stuff in the 2nd bedroom closet. I just have a few things to box up in there and that room is essentially done.

I started on the kitchen tonight. OY VEY!!! The bad thing about collecting shot glasses and coffee mugs? The moving process of said shot glasses and coffee mugs. I brought two Xerox paper boxes home from work, they are both full of most of my coffee mugs and some of my glasses.

I have an Avon box that I am currently filling up with my shot glasses. I think they will all fit in this one box. Cross your fingers for me!

We had a great Christmas party at work today. It started at about 12:00 and it lasted the rest of the afternoon. We had a lot of the District Chiefs that were on duty and some that were off duty, come in and join us. There was yummy food and lots of laughter.

We will be having left overs for lunch tomorrow. AND tomorrow is Platoon 1 day, so it’s going to be a good day for me!

I need to get more boxes soon cause I’m running out of them here. After packing those coffee mugs and glasses, I realized how many dishes I have and will need more boxes for them.

I’m in a good mood right now and I’m feeling good about my situation. I’m anxious to get into the new apartment, get settled and then find a second job so I can start paying off these bills that just keep stacking up on me. And in this economy, I’m not too optimistic about the job being easy to find. However, I will look.

I’m going to start saving for a transcription machine so I can branch out and start doing contract work for that.

I’ve even considered a health care career, since it seems to still be “booming.”

Off to do a little more packing.

Until next time…

Yeah.  I’m excited about Friday already.   It’s payday tomorrow and I’ll be able to pay some bills, get some patches and get on the road to my smoking cessation!  WHEEEE

After much thought, meditation and prayer last night, I’ve decided I will NOT be removing the Flickr badge.   I will also only be password protecting those posts where I bitch, complain or talk about something extremely touchy and don’t want people at work to know.

I realized last night after I posted my last one that I do not do well under censorship.  I hate censoring what I say, how I say it and when I say it on this blog.

I’ve spent the last (almost) 3 years being honest, up front and pretty vocal on how I’m feeling about day to day things.   I’m not going to stop doing that just because someone at work has found this blog.

I woke up a little late this morning.  I’m having such a hard time dragging my ass outta bed anymore.  I think it’s the cold weather.  At least they are expecting a little warmer weather today and tomorrow.

Did you see/hear that it was snowing in Las Vegas again?  Two times in a week!  One of my friends back there was texting me in a panic cause she hates the cold.  A few of my friends on Facebook posted pictures of the snow.  I’m laughing at them.  Seriously.

Even though I know that were I still living there, I would be freaking out right along with them, I’m laughing at them.

Today is our Christmas party at work.  I’m looking forward to it.  I love Christmas parties.  I have some Christmas cards to fill out, but I’ve been lazy and haven’t done them.  *le sigh*

I really need to get ready for work now.  The only thing keeping me going is knowing tomorrow is Friday and soon I will be able to sleep in (Saturday) and not have to use my alarm to wake up!

I was looking at a website with paternity test information on it. I have no idea why I was looking at it, but it seemed interesting at the time.

Until next time…

I’m a rockstar!!!! We had our six month review today and I am rocking it! They are very pleased with my performance and the fact that I learn so quickly. Both the Manager Lady and the Trainer had nothing but great things to say about my work performance, my attendance and my attention to detail. WHEEEEE

After finding out that someone at my work has googled certain terms and found this blog, I’m going to be removing the Flickr badge. And I’ll be password protecting any posts that have to do with work (especially when I’m bitching.)

The same password as before will be the same password I will always use. If I change it, I will let ya’ll know. If I know you and I know you’ve been reading this blog for awhile, I will give you that password if you ask me real nicely.

I am searching for the energy to get up and go pack some more stuff. I have a ton of stuff right now that I still need to look through and possibly get rid of before the big move coming up in a few weeks.

I really have nothing else to share right now. Maybe later? Tomorrow? Who knows!

Until next time….

Everything that has been said to me today via phone, emaile or in person here at work has been rude, condescending and plain snarky mean.

Every now and then, I love being snarky and bitchy.  However, I try to never, ever make someone feel stupid for their thoughts or ideas.

Could the reason I’m taking everything so personally be that I have had only two cigarettes as of 11:45 a.m. and I’m normally at about 7 or 8 by now.

Yeah, I was supposed to cold turkey it today and not even have one.  However, I got to a point (twice so far)where I felt like killing someone, so I caved.

I’m finding it hard to concentrate, think logically and or do anything else but sit here looking and feeling dumbfounded.  Lack od nicotine will do that to ya!

I remember the last time I only “cut down” on my smoking, I felt this same way.  I can’t wait until payday so I can go get the patches to try again.  Between now and then, I’m going to work very hard at doing it cold turkey, but I won’t beat myself up if I can’t do it 100%.  I learned the last time I tried to quit that I can NOT be hard on myself if I fall off the wagon.  The harder I am on myself, the less likely I am to keep trying.

I’m going to go walk around the building a bit because I, once again, feel like killing someone.

Until next time…

• I’m about to jump into a hot bubble bath. I’m freezing! Since it’s snowing/sleeting outside, I’m not driving to my meeting. They’ll just have to live without me. I made a few phone calls to get someone else to chair the meeting. I refuse to drive in this weather. If they don’t like it, that’s their problem!
• I’ve kept this kind of secret, except when I mentioned it once on here last week, but I’m smoking my last cigarette right now. Right.now. I have half a cigarette left to last me until I go to bed tonight.
• I’ve collected my ashtrays and washed them and put them away (except the one I’m using right now). I’m waking up tomorrow morning as a non-smoker. I saw pictures of what my lungs can (and probably do) look like.
• I’ve tried to quit several times before and was never ready. REALLY ready!
• I’m excited to see how much better I feel after all the toxins start leaving my body!
• I’m excited to see the financial benefits more than I am the health benefits. is that bad?
• It’s time for that bubble bath now.

Until next time…