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Some things I do and do not do

I’m working through that whole “not feeling safe” thing from my post yesterday.

I made this list up a few weeks ago when I was feeling kinda whiny and petulant. 

  • I am faithful and love my Higher Power, deferring all major decisions to Him.
  • I am compassionate
  • I am loyal beyond reason sometimes
  • I forgive easily and without regret
  • I love my family and friends
  • I love my recovery – no matter how shaky it gets sometimes
  • I am good at my job
  • I am a great listener
  • I give great advice (if only I could follow my own advice….)
  • I may struggle financially, but I am in a good place for my current bills & living expenses.
  • I may not have the highest IQ out there, but I am smart and intuitive
  • I am stronger than anyone (including myself) gives me credit for
  • I approach every situation with love and compassion – whether it backfires in my face or not, I do not let that stop me

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  • I have not once made judgment on someone without knowing both sides of the story – and sometimes not even then.
  • I have never made someone choose sides in a situation and have never considered doing it.
  • I complain a lot, even when my life is good.  I think it’s just the woman in me.
  • I no longer enjoy just sitting around drinking.  I’d rather go out and dance it off or shoot pool while drinking and have a designated driver there!
  • I no longer enjoy gossiping maliciously about people, places and things.  It’s not who I am so I am working on not doing that anymore.
  • I no longer enjoy blogging as much as I used too or even using Twitter like I used too.  I do, however, still absolutely adore Facebook and everything on there!
  • I do not lie about who I am, what I was or what I did while I was gambling (and even after that).
  • In the last 9 years, I have not thrown someone’s past in their face or used it against them in any way.
  • I do not like my supervisor for work stuff, but outside of work she’s fun and a hoot to hang out with.
  • I do not enjoy being in school but I know that the long term goal I’ve set will benefit me and I keep trying to focus on that end result.
  • I no longer lack integrity and strive to do the next right thing – whether anyone is watching or not.
  • I no longer cry for attention when I’ve done something good for someone else.
  • I keep to myself more today than I did a year ago and I’m okay with that. 
  • I’m kind of digging where I’m at right now.

4 Responses to “Some things I do and do not do”

  • bubblewench says:

    Nice job. Don’t forget those things, they are important!

  • Shelli says:

    Sometimes it’s important to take this kind of inventory.

  • Miss Britt says:

    I don’t know why, exactly, but for some reason some of these things actually felt more angry and/or judgmental than I’m used to from you. Am I crazy/projecting?

    • Sodapop says:

      Bubblewench, I’m trying! I’m taking daily inventories and the lists are a lot of like each day – much like this one!

      Shelli – I agree! it’s why i started doing this!

      Miss Britt – hmmm I don’t believe they came from a place of anger or judgment. However, I may have been subconsciously angry at the annonymous person from before because, unfortunately, I let other people upset me when I know they don’t deserve that reaction from me. I started doing these daily lists to help me keep track of my own behavior, so I can work through whatever issues I’m having that day.