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Since I am a complete ditz, I forgot to call my oldest nephew on his birthday.  I will rectifying that in the morning and asking him to forgive me.

Until then….

HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, J!!!!  I hope it was magical and all things a young man would want in his birthday.

I love you and I miss you.

xoxo

As I sit here this morning writing this post, I think of all the things going on in my life and how truly blessed I’ve been, even in those struggles.

The situation in Vegas is coming to a close (legally) and I’ll have some more stuff I need to take care of and pay for, but it’s finally winding down to the point I can move forward with things and get shit done.  I’m sure I’ll stress over the finances of it all, since that is my weakest link in my life right now, but at least I’ll be moving forward instead of sitting in one spot – the unknown.

I’ve learned a great lesson in my trials and tribulations of the last 6 months.  Things about myself and things about other people.  I’ve been blessed with many good friends who support me emotionally and encourage me to keep putting one foot in front of the other.  I’m blessed with family who encourage me and let me vent and let me know they are praying for me.  I cling to those people, as I’ve also been blessed in seeing the true character of some people in my life and it makes me feel blessed to know I don’t have to own their behavior. 

I’ve grown and I’ve digressed.  I’ve moved forward and I’ve moved backward (all emotionally speaking, of course).  I’ve also found my way to some new discovery of self.  While I sometimes don’t like what I see in the mirror of self awareness, I will always be grateful for it.

God’s grace is unearned.  While, as a Christian, I believe we all deserve it, I also believe it is unearned and when God graces me, I feel truly blessed.

I was recently talking to The Trainer after my workout and we were discussing me going to a concert and he said to me “don’t drink and drive!” I laughed out loud and said “I don’t drink anymore, so it’s not a problem.”  Ten minutes later, I was chewing on that statement and trying to remember the last time I drank any kind of alcohol.  It was in February, Lexington to be exact.  After THAT weekend, I think I know why I haven’t been drinking at all.  lol

So I chewed on the statement I made some more and I realized I have no desire to drink.  None.  I have a bottle of wine in my fridge that I received for Christmas – never opened.  I have a six pack of beer in the fridge that has been there since before I went to Vegas – never opened.  I don’t even know that I’d want to do a shot of tequila (and anyone who knows me KNOWS that is shocking! Hahah)

As this new evolution of self starts and winds it’s way through my life, I can’t help but to be grateful that I’m on another one and that I am blessed to be here.

I’m taking my car in to be repaired Friday.  It’s going to be expensive (not as expensive as I originally thought though!) and I’m not looking forward to being out of that money.  But it’s going to be fixed, it won’t make the noises anymore.  I work with some pretty awesome people cause one of them said he’d pick em up from the shop and take me back to the office.  He also said he’d take me back down there when it was done, or if it wasn’t done that day, he’d take me home. 

Thanks for letting me share.

I somehow missed out on getting “fooled” today.  I’m quite happy about that.  However, I do have a habit of questioning everything I’m told on this day.  I tend to not believe anyone until proven that they aren’t lying or trying to fool me.  Cynical, but effective.

On that note, this is not an April Fools Day joke.  Nor do I have any kind of joking behavior or thoughts in my head as I type this.

Since I started doing Crossfit in December, I’ve had various aches and pains.  I’ve stretched muscles that have never been stretched.  I’ve hit my head on a barbell, cut up my shin from one of the black mats in gym, have barely been able to walk, wash my hair or sit on the toilet.  I have forged through, I have kept moving and I have kept up my commitment to get into better shape and feel better about myself.

And then my shoulder happened.  That’s all I’m calling it…My Shoulder.

Tuesday, I did 21/15/9 thrusters, bent over rows and push ups.  I used the 45 pound barbell that I normally use for thrusters and bent rows.  My arms and shoulders felt like jello and felt like they were super heavy.   But I was still mobile and it didn’t “hurt,” in more than a “wow I got a great workout!” way.

Wednesday, I did nothing arms related and stuck to stair runs, sit ups and squats and then used the elliptical here at home for a little more cardio.  Wednesday night, in the middle of the night, My Shoulder woke me up.  I was in so much pain I could hardly move.  But I got up, took some ibuprofen and then iced it as I fell back asleep.

Yesterday, my shoulder was still sore so I kept icing it throughout the day at work and taking ibuprofen.  I figured it was just sore from the workout Tuesday and the elliptical Wednesday.  The workout for yesterday was jump squats, burpees and push ups along with some stair runs.  My shoulder felt fine, didn’t hurt at all.  But again, it was sore and tender on the shoulder and all in that area curving up to my neck and then down to my shoulder blades in the back and my collar bone in the front.

Once again the pain woke me up in the middle of the night last night and that’s all she wrote.  I have been unable to concentrate on anything other than the fact my shoulder is RAGING.  I came home early from work so I could ice it some more and rest it.  I tried to get into my doctor, but she was booked and I refuse to pay $50 for the immediate care centers for them to tell me to do exactly what I’m doing.  I’m icing it twice an hour for 20 minutes each.  I’m taking ibuprofen every 4-6 hours as needed and I’m resting it.

I’ve noticed it hurts MORE when I do not move around.  I’ve noticed it hurts horrendously when I try to lay on my left side.  I have full range of motion, even though it is tender to do this.  Personally, I think it sounds like Bursitis, but since I”m not a doctor, I’m just going with “my shoulder fucking hurts badly.”

I have to work the 2nd job tomorrow, with NO option of NOT working, so I’m pretty much not moving off my couch all night long as I continue the ice and ibuprofen regiment.

I’ve become pretty tolerant of aches and pains since I started working out.  This is the FIRST ache/pain that has made me cry from the pain.  This is also the first ache/pain that has made me leave work early AND miss a workout.  I’ve gotten pretty used to my five days a week thing and I really look forward to that 30-45 minutes of constant activity.  I miss it already!

Here’s hoping to a fairly good weekend, pain and all, and hoping this ache/pain goes away by tomorrow or Sunday.  If not, Monday after we do payroll I’ll be calling to get an appointment with my doctor.  I’m sure she’ll tell me to do what I’m doing (and maybe add a sling to the mix) and continue icing it and missing my workouts.

Until next time…