Archive for January, 2015
If you watch Game of Thrones, you’ll know who Tyrion Lannister is. He says something in the first season that I just love and it has stuck with me since I read the book and watched the TV show. He says “Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor and it can never be used to hurt you.”
The entire scene between Tyrion and Jon Snow was amazing to me because there were two outcasts, sitting together.
The “meat” of the scene is here:
Tyrion: Let me give you some advice bastard. Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.
Jon: What the hell do you know about being a bastard?
Tyrion: All dwarfs are bastards in their father’s eyes.
I just love that. “Wear it like armor.”
What do you wear like armor?
Here are a few things I will never forget:
- I am a compulsive gambler. I cannot gamble normally. I cannot try to win things on the radio, I cannot enter raffles or play the lottery.
- I used to do dishonest and not so nice things to ensure I could keep gambling.
- I was not a very moral person.
- I am in recovery. I am a better person today than I was 14 years ago when I was gambling.
- I am courageous and brave.
- I am a woman of integrity.
- I am honest and forthcoming.
- I have a great sense of humor.
- I’m a hard worker and am very conscientious in my work.
- I am growing and go through an evolution pretty often.
- I like change. It keeps me on my toes and keeps me active and aware of what’s going on around me.
- I am a college student with hopes and dreams of my future.
I’ve had my past thrown in my face and used against me in order to hurt me. And it worked. Until I didn’t let it, until I started wearing it like armor. No one can hurt me with that information unless I let them. I refuse to let them anymore. My past is exactly that, my past and I don’t live there anymore. It helped mold and develop who I am today. I’m grateful for my past, as it shows me where I don’t want to return or don’t want to repeat.
Until next time….